Anxiety and loneliness

I just want to fist send you a big air hug.

Yes this isolates us all. You know family arent always compassionate. Some spouses even if at first they are kind become bitter over time even nasty. You begin to feel lonely and like a burden. Theres a no win win in this. You think there would be or you say well they'll find my body. Only this doesnt kill anyone. And they are going to get frustrated then you have this and their issues to carry on your back. It all comes down to a fear illness. And the fear exists with or without another person. Its a very difficult disorder overall. I get the lonliness and i get you thinking it couod be different but not, really many newbies in here they are in their first year of it well decades later family gets desensitized and arent so comforting. I wish they were. And for the 20 percent who have loving family or spouses the whole way through  they are rare. Your compannion wouldnt be the savior you believe it would be. Nor are you in a state of mind to embrace a relationship. Im just saying as much as you think thats heloful its a mixed bag if it is. Some family or spouses end up being toxic for your well being too. And yes some are helpful but none are a savior. The savior here is within you. We all just have to dig deep within ourselves and try to figure this out. At least until science figures it out. 

Truth is we are animals. And animals by nature sepertae themselves when they are ill. So it makes sense we all push people away or they dont want to be a part of it so much, we label it social anxiety im not sure thats its real name.

what about saving an animal from a shelter. Theres no rule your company has to be human. Dogs are loyal beyond anything alive.  Youd be amazed in that one. Dont dismiss it so fast. They are helpless and trapped in a shelter and you feel helples and you feel trapped and helpless. What a beautiful mix. We are a part of nature. Keep that in mind. No rule your company has to be a human. 

Having someone understands doest remove the disorder. Only you can do that. I wish i knew the cure, the reset but i dont. And many have ailments co existing. Its a difficult journey. I personallyntruely hope there is a reason behind all this ..like a soul learning thing and the rest of eternity is easier. It gets very hard to find solace or refuge here and i find it believing and embracing that there is a bigger picture in all this and someone up there is looking out for me somehow and in the end it will be understood and ok. Theres a large amount of people who turn to spiritual stuff or religion at some point in all this...they are not the same thing. 

it would have been nice if this world stopped being so fear based, self absorbed and money hungry and territorial and started behaving like a part of nature, as they are and cared for their fellow man. One big family kind of thing. On a random note so many are pro life yet they dint care once the life exists and they ignore the other morals or commandments..what happened to love your neighbor as they self. You see the world is inconsistent. 

You can even get a couole of dogs if you wanted. You would be really amazed hiw this feels. I mean really happily amazed. I never had a dog before the ine i adopted five years ago. And i never imagined or kmew the love and loyalty they orovide and visa versa. Think about that.they also thru love get up and about to play and walk them. They reteach you about the simplicity of life. 

Hello Don

I understand how you feel albeit people say that no one can truly understand another's feelings. Wecan onlytry to get into their world.

Coincidentally a friend who lives 200 miles away has just phoned with the exact sentiments that you are expressing on here.

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?I was wondering if you had a degree of agorophobia as this is often present in anxiety conditions?

?This of course can prevent one from socialising .

Drugs can also cause a type of anxiety called depersonalisation, this is a disconnection from life. At least that is how my neurlogist described it when I started experiencing this awful feeling of not wishing to socialise etc. I would not describe it as a social anxiety though in my case it was more like I could not see the point of anything and that was stopping including eating, housework, any activity no matter how undemanding physically, everything was too much effort.

I was constantly ringing up the Samaritans who were there to relieve some of the anxiety and loneliness.

It takes time to overcome these feelings but it can be done given time.

It is good that you come on this forum because you are not alone. Remeber that you are not alone.

I just want to add that making small steps to relieve your loneliness will help push your recovery. Drugs can only do so much without your effort. When you are ready you could try. How about inviting any one friend/family member you are more comfortable with for a lighthearted coffee over at the house - or inviting yourself over for a coffee even. If you do one or two such quick breaks per month with someone you are comfy with it may help build your tolerance and drive.

My advice here is to meet for a lighthearted visit rather than calling to offload. For your sake not theirs. To help break your cycle of thought and ruminating on difficulties. Once you establisha  closer connection with this person/people again, they will be more receptive. You can offload to us here instead while you try to rebuild closer relationships.

Anxiety and depression are great opportunities for growth/evolution towards a more comfortable experience for us. There really is a silver lining. My experience has been positive once I embraced the fact that my condition was as clear a message as one can get that something about the way i lived and interacted was not right. And i slowly looked for what makes me more comfortable but also stretched to try new things.

Sending much love.