Anxiety and medication journeys

So sorry not to hear from nikki, she is going through such a rough time just now, hope she gets the right meds.

dont worry if you can manage it about hols.  You know we are all the same, it restricts us so much but once we try its easier done than thought - a bit of diazepam for help too!  Takes a lot of inner strength to get through things with this illness but you are getting better and im sure youll feel the better of it when you have sunshine all day.  I was supposed to be going to lake district monday but so scared i dont know if ill feel like it or socialising with the friends there.  What a rotten deal weve been handed.  

Today we went out for a little sandwich lunch and the sun came out. Still had the diaz in pocket.  If only we could get back to normal.  Yesterday was awful so that was a little progress. 

Think of your hubby when you set off, do this for him if you can, put your thoughts in a box for a while, not easy i know.

hope you have a pleasant night.  Maybe ill hear from nikki when she feels better.

Thank you Ann,

Such wise words ??

Well done to you on doing that today, I know how difficult it must of been , but it's a positive!

Haven't heard from Nikki since this afternoon, she was quite chatty but suffering from feeling very anxious and racing thoughts too.

I got it wrong, she doesn't see her support worker for a month I think?!

I hope you have a restful night.

We sure have been handed a bum deal with this illness, so restricting and debilitating!

Just had some devestating news, my best friends nephew threw himself off a car park roof in town today😢😢😢

He'd been suffering from mental health problems for a while and leaves two young sons too, so awful 😢

Hugs 🤗 

Hoping your day is going along okand you can get. Out.  Its pouring here so not much chance after a lovely sunny day yesterday.

thats just awful about your friends nephew.  I can probably say without doubt he was on some form of medication.  It seems very common nowadays for young boys to have problems like this.

how awful, at least i have had a life, would like it back please!

up and down all night bladder playing up, do,you ever get that?

hope nikki is holding on till,her appt.

 

No you havent please dont think of it that way.

maybe this week just wasnt the right time for you.   You mustn't put any more stress on yourself.  You are not 100% and everyone will allow for that.  There are many times ahead when you can take a holiday.  Concentrate now on getting better which you are. It takes time.

i feel for you from a distance, we havent been able to have a holiday for three years and can only now manage a day or two.  In time we can all get better, please believe that. My trip to lakes tomorrow to see my oldest friend is off, i just cant do it. Its a good job she is very understanding.

keep in touch and dont beat yourself up.  This anxiety thing is horrid.  Hopefully not long lasting. Message me anytime. Thinking of Nikki too. 

Thank you so much Ann ??

Think the holiday was too soon into my recovery, obviously it was booked ages ago.

Sorry your trip is off too, this damn Anxiety has one hell of a lot to answer for that's for sure!

I feel so sorry for my husband, he's disappointed but understands as best he can.

Nikki isn't doing too well today, she had a bad night again and has had to phone the crisis team again.

Just wish there was a magic wand for all of us.

Thank you for your support Ann .

Hugs 🤗 

Yes, time to take stock and get back to normal.  What are you taking just now?  

You are just having the remains of the high anxiety too, it will settle.  I often feel i just cant do what others can and its hard.  

Im sure your hubby will just want you well and then a new holiday can be thought about.  Little things at a time will help.  Out to lunch then maybe one night not too far away.  Build on it.  I am still building.  Lunch out on saturday was good, sun was out. Today i as asked to a lecture on art but cant face the crowds there.  How silly is that.  So i end up at home, will have to go out for a walk.   Having problems with pain which has arrived i think it is ibs but dont know so more to ask dr about!

keep pushing on. Let me know how it goes. Love to Nikki too.

Hi Ann,

I'm still taking Escitilopram, Quetiapine and Diazepam.

Yes just trying to get back to where I was really, need to take things slower and not expect too much of myself.

Funny how one day is good then the next not isn't it?

I suffer from IBS, seems to go hand in hand with anxiety too!

I have medication to take for it.

Hope your days goes as best as possible, will let you know if I hear from Nikki xx

Hi Ann,

How has your day been?

I'm still feeling anxious but trying to get a grip on things, have taken extra Diazepam and extra Quetiapine today.

My next appointment with mental health nurse specialist is on the 27th but might see if I can see him sooner or get him to ring me.

Managed to do some food shopping this afternoon with my husband.

Still feeling awful about the holiday, but have also been surprised by the amount of people/family/friends who have said they thought it was too soon too.

Sending hugs 🤗 

Hi, thats good you have been out today, got to keep the wheels moving.

also, even with a bit more medication you are coming to terms with what has happened.  Just too,soon. It will happen, you will get a holiday before me i suspect.

great you have support from friends and family, it all helps.

we met my son at an exhibition today but i have been bothered with a really sore hip just now, never had it before but i am worried i dont like taking pain killers as they seem to make me feel worse in mornings but cant stand this pain.  I was told that coming off mirtaz it is normal to get aches and pains so not sure if thats what it is.  Will see dr thursday

hope you have a quieter night. Keep,chin up.

Thanks Ann,

Hope the hip pain eases for you.

Glad you managed to get out today too.

Hope you have a restful night too xx

Hi, hope you have a reasonable day today.  

One day at a time just now.   How is the anxiety?  Do you get panic attacks, i dont, i just feel over anxious at the smallest of things, even just a friend calling.  

Low back pain today so taken some painkillers hoping they'll work.  Had a back op four years ago which fixed it, hope its not returning but people coming off mirtaz seem to get backache so waiting to see.

i wonder if your prescription will be changed - it might be their answer, let me know when you hear.

Hi Ann,

Yes I have had panic attacks too, but usually just feel anxious over everything!

Sometimes I don't even know why?!

Yes I'm the same re even a friend calling round! Have put them off before now too, making some excuse!

Just popping into town for a hour with hubby, who for some reason wanted to go by bus? !

I hope that pain your experiencing isn't a reaccurrance of the problem you had before and is down to the Mirtazapine.

Slept quite well last night, think it was all the Quetiapine I'd taken lol 😂 

Haven't heard from Nikki yet, will let you know if I do.

Hope your day goes well xx

Well done, i couldnt get on a bus. An achievement today.

i keep thinking i should have been with my friend today but thats not positive thinking and it was my fault we had to cancel.

anyway, walked to shops then got supermarket big shop so bought some plants to replace my dying ones in pots on doorstep. Hope i can continue to look after them.

keep on pushing on, not too long till you see your nurse now.  

My problem with them is they either say increase dosage or change med and for me neither suits me.  Thats why im coming down, hope to not need diazepam one day.  Pipe dream, never mind!

Hi Ann,

You still did well to do what you did today, that's a big achievement!

I can't see a day when I will ever be meds free, I know GP and mental health nurse specialist would like me off Diazepam eventually and probably off Quetiapine too but they've got no chance at the moment!!

Nikki is struggling badly 😢 I try to check in with her every day, but she really is in a bad place and it seems her GP ( who is doing a home visit tomorrow) and her psychiatrist have different opinions on what she should be doing with medication!

I feel so sorry for her 😢

I hope you get some rest tonight.

How has your sleeping been? Xx