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Hi everybody...I am reading your posts and I feel like I found the place where people acctually understand what I am going thru myself...
I moved to Uk about 10 years ago and now Iam settled with my partner and our little boy ..we have good jobs ,car and a house but I find it difficult being away from my family and friends back home..I think this has trigged my depression and anxciety in the first place..I had few panic attacts in the past where I was convinced that I was dying and that was the end.It was horrible..now I am free from them but the anxiety is still there..Every pain, every ache is realated to a serious illness ..I always worry about how am I going to cope if I am told I am dying of cancer or other terminal ilness..I worry about my little boy as he is the only child and my family is abroad. I get headaches and I instantly think it's a brain tumor.I suffer with pains in my stomach which made me convinced there was someting serious going on . I had scans ,blood test and doctors can't find anything.Now the pain in my stomach seems to be milder but I focused on my breast next as I been having some pains in one breast on and off. I booke an appointment to see a doctor but now I feel ashame to go and see him as I am worried he thinks I am mad and waisting his time. I constantly fear the worst ,worry about my health and my familly's too!I am scared of dying or experiencing the death of my close family ..it drives me mad..
I stopped meeting up with people ..I don't really go out..When I have time to think I always focus on good times with my family and friends abraod and I feel like Iam missing out on life with them ..it makes me sad and lonely.
I love my partner and I know our life is here but all this anxiety and sad thoughts has really changed me as a person.
My GP offered me some meds but I refussed hoping that I can help myself.I did try to get help from some mental health support groups but I found it useless.
I hate feeling like this..I so want to enjoy my life and stop worring ..
I am glad I found this website as I know I am not alone..but even this is not much help for me..
Please shere your experiences ...BIG HUGS
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