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Okay, so over a year ago my experience with anxiety and panic attacks started. It was a terrifying and difficult time, but with the help of medication I was able to get a grip on it. In all this time I've built up coping mechanisms and learned a lot more about myself which has kept anxiety at bay. I have suffered from depression lately, but in all honesty I kind of forgot about my anxiety. I changed from Citalopram to Mirtazapine about 7 weeks ago now because I was becoming very depressed despite raising my dose of Cit. Mirtazapine has not been very effectual. It hasn't made me feel worse, but not better either. Anyways, for reasons unknown to me, my anxiety has creeped back into my life all of a sudden. The other day when coming home from work I started getting very anxious on the bus for no reason. I got off before my actual stop to walk for a bit to calm me down, but I felt very much on the edge of a panic attack. I had forgotten how horrible it feels. When I got in I had to do a lot of talking myself down accompanied by a few glasses of wine to help ease me through. It was totally random and unprovoked, and since then I have been very on edge and all the old syptims are coming back. The worst for me is the depersonalisation. I find myself questioning myself about whether things are real, etc. I'm sure someone can relate to this. Anyways its becoming increasingly more difficult to control and it seems like the mental strength I've built over the past year is no longer enough. I'm really worried because I remember how incapacitating all this was to begin with and I really can't afford to go through it again. Is it normal to have random relapses for no reason? Does anyone have any tips to help me get through?
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