Anxiety / Depression / Emotional Numbness

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I'm in a relationship and it's a really good one. I love my boyfriend so much and am attached and all of this other stuff. One day I go to sleep and wake up and have this anxiety and weird thoughts about him. Thoughts that say I don't love him, don't want him, and that he's unattractive. The thoughts go based off his appearance and I can't feel what I used to at the moment.

All I am is numb and get anxiety when he text. I look at videos of us trying to remind myself, but get it as well. Is it my depression making me think and feel these things? Will I feel normal for him again once it passes? I just want to be alone and break up with him, but it's like I know I'll be hurt in the end because I'm just confused at the moment and need help.

I've been feeling like this for 2 1/2 weeks now and it won't go away. I'm really scared of what it may be. I feel disconnected from myself and detached from him and that loving feeling I once had. All I can ever tell him is "I'm sorry". It's all too hard for me to handle right now and I've never really gone through this before.

I've been depressed I think, but this time around it feels like I've forgotten who I love most which sucks.

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    hi jaydeee, poor you! it sounds like you're having a really tough time. Don't blame yourself, it's cold, it's wet and this is was depression does. didn't you say you had this before? if so how did you cope with it before? can you go back down that route?: tell your partner - he needs to know....

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