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Anxiety. Guilt. Feeling like a bad person

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lauren74052
lauren74052

At times in my life I have months on end where thoughts and bad memories repeat over and over in my head. I have constant headaches. Blurry. Low energy. Depressed. Feeling like I am a really evil and bad person... doubting myself, not knowing who I am.

I remember things that I have done in the past be it 8 years ago... or 1 year ago.. and I obsess about these mistakes and make myself feel so terrible. I also think of times when I have been drunk at a hens or celebration and cannot remember the night and I wonder if I have kissed someone and cheated on my partner and just not remembered. I am not sure what I am capable of. Is this anxiety? I am punishing myself over all of this. I know that I have been black out drunk before and my husband said I kissed someone... I am paranoid I am a cheater deep down and I will do this stuff... I feel sick about it all.

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  • david7897
    david7897 lauren74052

    Posted

    Hello Lauren,

    So sorry to hear of your suffering. Please remember the sun will rise on a new day today and you are gifted with a free will. Just try to be good, it's all that anyone can ask. 

  • Myrissasauras
    Myrissasauras lauren74052

    Posted

    Well, that is partly anxiety, but mostly guilt. Remember that everybody makes mistakes, no matter what it is. The fact that you're acknowledging them, and feeling guilty shows you're not a bad person or evil. It's only human to make them, and learn. If you think you do wrong while drinking, maybe stop? Or have a limit. If you love your husband, and clearly he loves you, I don't think anything will go wrong. Anxiety is a bummer, and it will make all these thoughts be multiplied. My anxiety does that me all the time. So don't worry so much, just make changes where it's needed. smile 
    • Vickycam
      Vickycam Myrissasauras

      Posted

      What's past is past.  Do not persecute yourself with guilt, just know that deep down you are a good person.  We all have faults but with perseverance we can overcome them. As others in the forum have written make the changes - don't drink as much and try to feel better about yourself.  Start a new day TODAY. Make it and all the future

      days guilt free by living up to the good possibilities in yourself.  Peace my friend..  

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