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In March of 1980, I had my first nervous breakdown.... and the reason that I use this old term is because it's the closest thing to being accurate. Symptoms included a sensation of electrical discharge. I lost quite a bit of my personal memory banks. I was in the hospital due to depression, and from the hospital I went to many facilities before recouping enough to live on my own again. I thought it impossible that I could have anything even remotely like this again. But since that time I have had 3 more breakdowns in my life. Now my memory is horribly damaged, but the kind of loss does not appear in psych testing. The psych testing that is done can not test for personal memory. Things like memory for faces... for conversation... for what you did on a given day....for where you parked your car at the ball game. All of that is severely damaged. My wife looks out for me, but she does not truly understand what is wrong. I wish I could explain it to her. It's tough to explain to anybody. And, I've never found another soul who went thru this.... that is, anxiety leading to permanent personal/mental damage.
I am new to this site, so perhaps there has been others who have gone thru this. What I cannot understand is why mine was permanent. I've read about so many folks who went thru this or that, only to get better. But the electrical discharge I felt in 1980...that was real.... and seemingly unique. Wondering if anyone has ever heard of anything remotely like this.....
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