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Hi, I'm a 17 year old female who has been struggling with severe anxiety for about 4 months now. I've always had anxiety but it was only situational and able to be dealt with. Stress brought on this anxiety but the stress is no longer the problem, the problem is the constant feeling of being on age. Two months after my first panick attach were the worst. I had constant chest pain and arm pain so basically I felt like I was having a heart attack all day everyday, I wouldn't go out anywhere, I couldn't enjoy anything, I couldn't focus on anything, I didn't care to watch a movie or listen to music, anxiety made everything unenjoyable. To deal with this and not feel like I needed to be in the ER everyday due to bad chest pain I took .25 of xanax twice a day. From September to now I have honestly improved so much but I can only say that because of how much worse it was then compared to now which still doesn't help with how hard it is. Every day activities come as a struggle to me, it makes me anxious to go out, be out but I push myself as much as I can I just hate that I'm not able to enjoy anything which you can imagine would make a person depressed, I cry every day because I just want to feel normal again and live my life to the fullest. I still get dizzy, chest pain, arm pain, headaches, worry, racing thoughts, fear everyday about the silliest of things. The thought I mostly get lost in is the one well "what's the answer?"..I'm in therapy and I was prescribed celexa which I had an allergic reaction to and made me very anxious after two days and then I tried paxil which I tried for one night and stopped because it gave me this delirious I should be sleeping but I'm not feeling and it was horrible and I felt very numb the next day I didn't like it... I was told I didn't give it a fair chance so I tried it for three more days and it still did not go well, I felt so pressured by family to take it that I just felt so horrible because I really just wanted my normal brain back even if that meant with anxiety. I'm still taking .25 of xanax once a day which I beat myself up over because I know it's habit forming and I have been pretty reliant on it as it is the only thing that brings me any relief to my anxiety. And I cry about this and I worry about myself taking it every day but I'm told that its okay and that I need it right now. I don't want to see myself taking this still in a few months. I want more than anything to be in a different place. I go to see my psychiatrist on January 2nd to talk about trying a new anti depressant. I just don't know how I feel about any of this, so many different opinions, I read too much, people saying how bad anti depressants are for you then others talking about how it gave them their life back, so my little active mind does nothing but worry about this. I guess I just want to know is there an answer to my question? Will I get better? Can medication help? Will I ever be able to live a functioning life and make a future for myself and get this anxiety under control? What will it take? My anxiety is crippling me not only mentally but physically.. I feel sick. I have so much I could be happy about if my brain and body would just cooperate with me. I worry about everything lol, and I lost my mother to breast cancer 4 years ago, I wish I could ask her all my crazy questions. I'd love to hear others stories and advice on how they made it through anxiety or are getting through the rough struggle of it. Thank you <3 i look forward to replies. i="" look="" forward="" to="">3 i look forward to replies.>
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