Anxiety hit me hard tonight and I need advice ( Harm OCD )
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My name is Sasha and I'm very new to having to deal with anxiety and what some reffer to as "Harm OCD or Pure O" aka intrusive thoughts.
I had a very bad flair up tonight. I guess I was scared about going to the doctor tomorrow about my sore neck and all of a sudden I felt it building but I stayed calm or atleast I thought I was.
Then after dinner it hit me.....and what scared me the most was I was calm ( again I thought I was calm ) and the thoughts were there and wouldn't go away. It wasn't "what ifs" it was "come on...do it, harm them". I felt urges which I never felt before....That was what suddenly sent me into panic mode.
I never ever felt like that before. After going to a counselor and seeing my GP and even getting some great advice from both I felt I may have been improving but then tonight happened and it scared me into a serious panic attack, something I haven't had in well over 2 months.
I so badly want to fight this without having to take medication but tonight sent me to the edge and I didn't like that feeling.
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tiff54986 sasha67768
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You're going to be ok.
it's terrifying, I know. Write down these thoughts in a journal. Try chamomile tea. Text a friend, one you trust. Trust me. This whole weekend I've felt this weird sensation in my heart area and thought I would die of a heart attack or stroke. I think I'm just stressed. I'm young and have no history of heart problems. It's a mind game. It's awful. But there's hope and peace. Try stretching and going for a walk and breathing freshe air..I wish you the best dear. 
ana97778 sasha67768
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I used have these type of thoughts I have OCD also is terrible ;/ been in therapy 2 months not meds doing good but a little bit of OCD still here the only way for me to overcamed those thoughts was exposure and respond prevention it was really scary my anxiety used to go really high when I was having these thoughts about hurting myself or hurting someone else but with exposure therapy I accepted it and I accepted the anxiety every day doing this for about 4/5 months until the thought didn't cause me no anxiety now I have them but they don't cause me anxiety now I have health OCD worry about my health heart attacks heart disease I m in therapy for this again. I will advise you to look for exposure and respond prevention therapy I hate OCD good luck
vanessa45115 sasha67768
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Sasha, I also have "hurt OCD" and I've had it for approximately 14 years. The first time was horrific because I had 2 small children and I had no idea what was happening to me. I was scared and ashamed to tell anybody my thoughts of what if I hurt my children. I didn't want to be left alone with them. After a long time I seeked help and got better. Six months ago I was walking my dog and as I walked pass a stranger on the street I looked at her and thought "I want to kill you." It would then happen with every person I looked at. I thought because they were no longer "what if" thoughts, I must be losing my mind. You have to accept these thoughts for what they are and don't doubt yourself. I'm proof that they are just thoughts. You're going to be okay🙂
borderriever sasha67768
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If you are hearing voices it is important that you explain that as well.
Let us know how you get on
BOB
sasha67768
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I went to a GP today and when I tried to explain things to him about how I was feeling, he began to imply that I might be schizophrenic. Hearing that scared me so badly. I didn't hear voices or anything like that.... but when I talked to my psychologist he said that often GPs will assume things like that because they don't know how to properly disgnose OCDs / harm OCD.