Anxiety, mental breakdown, don't know how to get back to where I was?
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This is going to be a long post but I will try to shorten it as much as possible. Okay so I had a very rough childhood growing up which made me grow up very fast. I moved out and started working young and didn't get to go to college. I entered a relationship which ended up lasting about 3 years... the guy cheated on me and basically had a family on the side I had no idea about. After finding out about that I ended things and for awhile was doing really great. Just being independent and working hard. However that ended after a few months and I have been going downhill ever since. I've had depression since I was 14-15 and have always struggled with that but after this relationship I now have anxiety too. Not so much panic attacks but more derealization. Where I get brain fog, tiredness, weakness, inability to speak, headaches, dizziness, tunnel vision. I ended up starting school while still working full time and that was going great at first... and then I just broke down. I could barely work and basically needed to sleep all the time because of terrible migraines, tunnel vision, and confusion. I couldn't focus on anything or think clearly. Now after about 3 weeks I am still going in and out of this hazy awful state. I still can barely work and I am out of it most of the time. I am out of money and don't know how I am going to keep doing this... I know I need a break. I need to quit my job that I hate and focus on school until the semester is over BUT I have to pay my bills... No one else can help me and I do not think I qualify for disability. I just don't know how to get back to where I was... I was seeing a counselor a few months ago but she completely disappeared and won't answer my calls?! I guess I just need advice... I don't know what to do really.
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jmcg2014 aubri42534
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dawn17082 aubri42534
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sorry to hear your going through such a hard time at the moment. First things first, might i suggest a quick trip down to your local GP, they can then check to make sure you are okay and relieve any of your fears. It sounds like your burning yourself out what with emotional stress from your relationship break-up and then working and studying at the same time. Are you eating properly? If not you may need to add a vitamin and mineral supplement into your diet plus ensure your eating enough of the right foods to help you through these stressful times.I know when i'm stressed out and filled with anxiety eating is the last thing on my mind but not eating after a while can cause an upset to your body, in my case i've got low iron levels which have been causing me all manner of symptoms. Also, are you getting enough sleep? Again sleep is so important, it gives your body and mind chance to relax and recouperate, if your not sleeping properly then again the doctor's could help or advise on that too as well as maybe refering you to see another councellor.
With regards to your job, is there any possiblitly that you could cut some of your hours so your not overloaded? So you can still earn and pay your way but also be able to have time to yourself and to your studies? Maybe worth asking and doing, at least until you could find a job that you'd be more happy with.
Do you have any friends/family that can support you? If work is really something you want to stop or go part-time with then would they be happy for you to lodge, to help bring the bills down?
Try not to be too hard on yourself, you've been through so much and are doing a lot.
djole19828 aubri42534
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punk aubri42534
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I would advise you to consult another doctor and resume therapy and/or medications.
Road to recovery may look far but believe you me it is definitely worth a shot!
Also, try going for a walk, doing yoga, meditation, etc. It helps especially when we need to rubbish self doubts and fears.
Take care