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This is going to be a long post but I will try to shorten it as much as possible. Okay so I had a very rough childhood growing up which made me grow up very fast. I moved out and started working young and didn't get to go to college. I entered a relationship which ended up lasting about 3 years... the guy cheated on me and basically had a family on the side I had no idea about. After finding out about that I ended things and for awhile was doing really great. Just being independent and working hard. However that ended after a few months and I have been going downhill ever since. I've had depression since I was 14-15 and have always struggled with that but after this relationship I now have anxiety too. Not so much panic attacks but more derealization. Where I get brain fog, tiredness, weakness, inability to speak, headaches, dizziness, tunnel vision. I ended up starting school while still working full time and that was going great at first... and then I just broke down. I could barely work and basically needed to sleep all the time because of terrible migraines, tunnel vision, and confusion. I couldn't focus on anything or think clearly. Now after about 3 weeks I am still going in and out of this hazy awful state. I still can barely work and I am out of it most of the time. I am out of money and don't know how I am going to keep doing this... I know I need a break. I need to quit my job that I hate and focus on school until the semester is over BUT I have to pay my bills... No one else can help me and I do not think I qualify for disability. I just don't know how to get back to where I was... I was seeing a counselor a few months ago but she completely disappeared and won't answer my calls?! I guess I just need advice... I don't know what to do really.
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