Anxiety? My story.

I am a 22 Y/O Male. My experience with anxiety began on July 3rd, 2017. I was just getting settled into the Army, hopeful and excited to leave the financial struggles I left behind In my civilian past. I was in the best shape of my life as of yet, and was eager to further my personal fitness, I was on a four day weekend working out at the post gym when I decided to use a pre-workout supplement, this ended in a panic of chills and sweat, which I know associate with my ever common "Anxiety Attack" within the hour I was in the local E.R. The hospital staff seemed very lighthearted with almost a sneer of there faces as they observed me in panic, turns out, nothing happened, I was fine. I am thankful for what I view as a second chance, even if nothing happened physically. But Psychologically I was changed. Never in my life had I ever even felt a tinge in my torso until that day.

This now bring me to months later. Sometime in November 2017.

I had been on whats referred to in the U.S. Military as a "Profile" as I awaiting various medical examinations to clear me for anything besides "Light duty" this was anything but "Light Duty" having a profile in the military to say the least is not something seen in a positive light. This made my days at my unit longer and much more arduous that necessary. I had finally made it to Cardiology and was given and cleared a series of testing.

-Echocardiogram

-Stress Testing (Treadmill Test)

-Holter Monitor (14 Days)

-Electrocardiogram

-Various Blood work in relation to the CV, Hormonal, and Thyroid systems.

To my relief all results came back normal nothing negative found.

However the symptoms I had since July 2017. Never truly faded. Expecting them to disappeared after testing was my sole hope, they did not, However I can say today they are lesser. Strange tinges in my chest, feelings of soreness almost a tight sensation still occur in various areas of my torso chest and flanks, especially when I experience Stress. Not always, but mostly. This has eroded my belief of these results even though rationally speaking I believe them, but what are these symptoms? why do they feel so genuine? Why do I feel so out of it when I do something physical for more than a half hour or so?

Previous to July 17' I never experienced any of these symptoms, let alone anything past a mild stress, and could be completely stressed, or complete nearly any realistic physical feat and not feel the slightest bit off kilter. What is different now compared to then?

Fast forward to March 18'

I was know being separated with a medical discharge from the Army due to these strange symptoms "Interfering with my ability to perform my duty" and the fact that no diagnosis or physical issue could be found they had no other choice. I couldn't blame them just the thought of exercise or standing watch for hours on end made me feel spaced out and off balance at the time. However, this was my life up this point, the Army quite literally took me off the "Street" or a plethora of friends couches. I knew going home would fix nothing.

Fast forward to today June 19'

I can say that the symptoms arent nearly as bad, but they are still prevalent, and bothersome to say the least, I still wonder what the heck is wrong and if everything was accurate, Its so hard to trust an organization that I dont think even believed me. This weighs on me, wondering why I cant run or spend my free time slugging away at the gym symptom free, more like living life, care free, Always wondering.

Thanks for reading, I am not author, just someone looking for guidance, and the next step. I have tried Therapy and some medications while i was still in which provided Marginal Benefit. My goal is to run/exercise/be physical for more than x minutes without worry of becoming "Spaced out" or "Off kilter" and to to be able to experience stress without the symptoms to essentially be "Normal Again" like I was before. To work normally, and Maybe one day Return to the Army, where I belonged. If any more detail is needed please inquire. What is this?

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