ANXIETY TAKING OVER?

So just some background. Back on January 3, after a stressful time, losing a very stressful job, but made lots of money......I woke up in the middle of the night having a panick attack out of nowhere.....My first ever. On top of the stress that had been going on my menstrual cycle was way off, I was on birth control and bled for 4 weeks straight....3 days after I finally quit bleeding is when the panic attack happened......I became very worried, always googlling, worrying about what was wrong, very sensitive to every thought and feeling I was having. I thought every little thing I ate or done was causing me to feel this way.  3 weeks later I finally couldn't take it anymore, so I went to my GP who said I was having "situational" anxiety and prescribed me Lexapro. I took it twice and it made me feel "wired" so to speak, I had a bad panic attack, and brain zaps. I quit taking it and she gave me klonopin as needed. The first 2 times I took it, it worked perfect, the next 2 times it kind of had a reverse action affect on me. I didn't sleep all that great and the next day I would feel somewhat euphoric, yet still really nervous. And i don't really know if it was euphoric....it was more or less my vision was a lot brighter, I wouldn't need my morning Mountain Dew for that little pep, nor did I want it, and really nervous feeling, and jittery. Anyways I starting fighting this mess off with no meds, and it was not getting better, so my GP sent me to a psych in April, where she said it could be hormones or it could be bipolar, or both. She took me off of my birth control on April 2, and I have only had 3 panic attacks since then, verses the 3, 4 or 5 a day I was having before. I feel a lot better, and I have quit losing weight since then however. about 2 days after my period stops i feel like I do everything faster, my anxiety and panic is way higher, I then have about 3 days where I feel good, vision sharper,  more confident that i can beat this, no panic or physical anxiety symptoms, then boom I go back to cloudy vision, irritable, on edge, and always checking every feeling and thought I have.....My psych since then don't think it is my hormones or bipolar but just atypical anxiety and wants me to try lexapro again, but I am scared to because I know IF I am bipolar it would send me into a spiral that Im not ready to be a part of. I can't lose my job right now, and I have a husband and child at home. I don't know if it matters either, but I am 29 years old.....

For those of you that experience bipolar or anxiety or both. Does this sound like bipolar, or anxiety, or both? PLEASE HELP ME!

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