Anxiety & Travel

Ah Donna first time I laughed about this holiday, why? I can so see you asking to be dropped off on the next cloud 😂 it’s not even the flight it’s the getting through the Airport without making a t*t of myself, my fear is falling & as I’ve been told, sure if you do fall surely someone will pick you up!!  I’m on 2mg of anixcalm a day so I can up the amount I take for traveling - thank you so much for replying, I will tell hubby where I’m at, he’s so good, as I’ve been told, another one would be long gone - lol.  Will let you know in a couple of weeks how I got on, that’s if I’m not on that cloud you mentioned! x

Hi Jean, thanks for your lovely reply. I'm sorry I've only just seen it. Don't know where I've been for the past couple of days. Probably in a world of my own as usual. You will be OK and I know how hard it is to believe that when your feeling the way you do. But there is help out there. Have you ever seen the film "The wizard of oz"? Well, when I'm anxious, I'm like the scare crow, wobbling all over the place. And just like he hasn't got a brain," my brain and mind is scattered. Thoughts rushing so fast through my mind that I couldn't even call them thoughts as it's just sheer panic and dread and fear. Then tears because as I'm sure you know what it's like, I get totally, utterly sick and tired of it. Then I feel depressed, down and hopeless. All I can do is wait for it to pass, and it does - until the next time... And who knows when it will strike again? Sorry honey, I'm not trying to make you feel down. I just want you to know that I truly understand how this illness can make you feel alone and "different". Or maybe that is my way of thinking. The reality is many people suffer this. We only human and having emotions is a part of that. Jean, tell yourself, so what if I fall down. It doesn't matter! Keep telling yourself, even if you don't believe it that it's no big deal. What's the worst that can happen. I doubt very much it will! I'm just trying to emphasise that I know you may not feel strong or powerful but you hold the answer, it is within you and you do have the power to diminished your fears. Remember :it doesn't matter. You can always lean on your husband for support! Keep me posted honey xxx Donna x

“Thank you” so much to you all for taking the time to reply, it means a lot.  I took the advice and went for a walk & a chat with hubby, he is so good, we talked it through & as mentioned now that he knows I’m more settled.  Much more positive about it now & we have priority boarding etc., in fact we had a laugh, he said “sure you can sit and I will Q, then when we are good to go you can join me, then I will pretend I don’t know you” - lol.  In fairness I needed your push to tell him how I was feeling and what is/was going through this head of mine.  Again I say “Thank you” for your kindness Jx

That's excellent advice, yes your right them knowing in advance gets you preferential treatment, I had fantastic treatment when I went on my first mini cruise, think they thought I might jump overboard, I loved it though and the young steward who they assigned to me LOL

You are more than welcome.  I knew about this because I went abroad with a few friends and one of them had severe emphysema so we were all allowed to be at the front of the queue.  

I hope you have a great holiday.  x

That's great, I think the saying a trouble shared is a trouble halved or something like that, you can pretend your famous, don't forget the sticks of rock for us all

Lol - if only I could I would gladly - must keep an eye out for sticks of rock in Portugal & think of you all and your kindness x

Bet your excited as well,I'm going Malvern in our van soon not quite the same but at least it's a holiday, bet it want be as warm and sunny though, usually rains, my buggy got stuck in the mud last year, was rubbish LOL

Thank you all... you know what today I learned,we are all stronger than we think we are and I knew, but forgot, thinking about doing anything is the worst part... I was up at 4am (still dreading going on 2 weeks hols!) 3 hour drive, hubby parked car, bus to airport, checked in luggage, which meant standing, took every escalator that are so high, onto plane, 3 hours flight (lots of clouds Donna & thought of you & smiled). Taxi to resort I’m wrecked but SO pleased with myself and I didn’t fall or make a t-t of myself.  But I thought of you all enroute  & I just want to say again “Thank you” for taking the time to help me it means so much... Jx

Hi Jean, is the mind a powerful thing, first off it convinces us we can't do something and then the part that you do have control of says oh yes you can and you did, I'm soo proud of you, you give hope to thousands of others who are feeling scared and fragile, I bet your hubby is so made up with you, what can I say but have a superb holiday, lots of chilling and come back and tell us all about it xx

Well did you think I got lost-lol.  Had 11 great days out of 14 but took a major tilt on day 12, took dizzy followed by sinus infection, anxiety went through the roof, flight home mucked up my ears & im now a month with blocked inner ear infection, which makes me dizzy every so often.  But other than that I’m good - lol.  I was so pleased with myself getting there, but I’m sure there are lots worse off that me.  Take care x

Hi Jean yep was beginning to think maybe you had decided you had got their so you were going to have an extended vacation LOL that's a shame you had to end it on a high note,,not,, but you actually did incredibly well and sinus/vertigo can hit whether we don't have anxiety or do, I have it on and off and I was given some incredible exercises to do every morning to help keep it at bay and it works really well once you get used to it, when you get up in the morning turn your head upside down and let it hang for a minimum of 30 seconds, it's not pleasant at first in fact I thought I was going to feint but thankfully you don't, if it doesn't clear first time do it again, up to three times every day till just doing it once works, I promise it really helps.

It doesn't matter that you think others are worse of, you conquered it and isn't that just amazing, I do feel proud to think that maybe the support from the forum actually helped get you their xx

Without the great advice and a little nudge I wouldn’t have had the 11 lovely days.  I just wish these ears would unblock and get my balance back, everyone in this house if getting fed up of it all-as am I I just don’t know what else to do, tried without antibiotics, spoke to GP, told to take them, have taken them & still the same, as in ears blocked and crackling etc., I dread having to go to his surgery and have to sit and wait in case I take a “tilt” but I suppose if I could get into my head, what better place to do it!!  Anyway I will see what tomorrow brings maybe there will be two major ear pops overnight - yuck.  Take care & T’u for being so kind & everyone else on here. x

Isn't it great when you take the bull by the horns and do something you are really scared of doing, you want topple it's just a sensation that is brought on by the inner ear and the crystals being in the wrong place, have you tried the head drop yet x

Did I try the head drop, thought my head and everything else was going to drop - lol.  You know you just got to laugh at yourself sometimes (or maybe lots!!). When I tried it I wondered why did I just do that & what for....  what am I like, opps, maybe don’t answer that..

So it made you really giddy, that's ok that's what it does and you keep it down till the feeling eases, it takes a couple of days to start to really help, it was a week for me but much better now, I still have to do it daily and that's six months since it started, I had the epley manoeuvre at doctors and it didn't help a lot, got to go back and see what else they can do, the heat brought it on worse I think.

Try not to get water in your ears either

Well another crap day - so much so I rang Dr surgery- he kindly rang me back, we chatted but said best thing is for him to see me & see where we go from here.. he did mention my anxiety which I’m peed  off about, it’s not in my head, oh ya, my ears are on my head lol.  But, you know what I mean.     We will see what tomorrow am brings.  x

 

I'm sure it's not in your head persa LOL but I think like me even real things we don't know at first if it's a MH problem or a real illness, Im better once I know what it is and can deal with it better than thinking what it can be.

Are you going tomorrow, sooner your seen the better.

I'm off to bed now as completely tired, I am having a problem with yawning, told that's in my head LOL hope you sleep well