ANY ADVICE HELP PLEASE ?
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CAN ANYONE HELP PLEASE ? IVE NEVER WRITTEN IN A DISCUSSION BEFORE AND NOT VERY EDUCATED SO PLEASE EXCUSE MISTAKES ETC, IVE SUFFERED FROM ANXIOUSNESS SINCE CHILDHOOD BUT ONLY DIAGNOSED AT AGE OF 31 WHEN SPLIT UP WITH TEENAGE SWEETHEART , WAS TAKEN INTO HOSPITAL FOR DEPRESSION AND THEY DIAGNOSED IMMEDIATELY MY GENERALISED ANXIETY DISORDER WHICH EXPLAINED A LOT OF AVOIDENC BEHAVIORS THROUGH MY LIFE ,I HAVE BEEN ON DIFFERENT MEDICATIONS FOR APPROX 16 YEARS NOW, BEFORE CHRISTMAS I WAS TAKING INTO HOSPITAL WITH PANIC ATTACKS THEY LET ME OUT AFTER A MONTH ON I DONT KNOW WHAT MEDICATION BUT I WAS ONLY OUT ABOUT A WEEK AND CRISIS TEAM TOOK ME BACK IN AND I WAS SECTIONED FOR 4 MONTHS, I CANT EXPLAIN EVERYTHING OBVIOUSLY IN MY LIFE BUT STAY ALONE AND IN LAST 3 YEARS LOST BOTH MY MOTHER AND FATHER, SINCE MY FATHER PASSED AWAY LAST APRIL I HAVE ONLY WENT OUT HOUSE WHEN NECISSARY AND WAS CRYING ALMOST EVERY DAY , ANYHOW TO CUT A LONG STORY SHORT IM OUT OF HOSPITAL ON A COCKTAIL OF TABLETS SOMEONE KNOWLEDGEABLE MAY PLEASE BE ABLE TO HELP AS I FEEL AWFULL , NO HOPE, OST IN LIFE, SELF HATRED, STILL ANXIOUS AND SO DEPRESSED AT TIMES FEEL SUICIDAL, FEEL A WEIRDO CURTAINS CLOSED ALWAYS STAYING IN ETC, IS THERE ANYONE WHO CAN TELL ME PLEASE AS TIME IN HOSPITAL THE DOCTORS CHANGED ABOUT 4 TIMES, NOW IM ON DRUGS CALLED
MIRTAZIPINE 30MG EVENING
DIAZAPAM 10 MG FOUR TIMES A DAY
QUETIAPINE 100MG EVENING
QUEITIPINE 25MG MORNING LUNCH AND EVENING
FLUOXETINE 60MG IN MORNING
PREGABALIN 200MG 3 TIMES A DAY
PROPRANOLOL 80MG IN MORNING
WHEN I WENT IN HOSPITAL INITIALLY THEY MADE A MISTAKE OF CUTTING MY DIAZAPAM TO ZERO AFTER BEING ON 60 MG FOR 13 YRS THEN 40MG FOR 4 YEARS, THE DR THOUGHT ID JUST BEEN ON IT 3 MONTHS THEN LET ME HOME AND DIDNT KNOW WHERE I WAS WAS TAKING BACK IN SEEN BY A DIFFERENT LADY DR WHO RECOMMENDED ECT THEN SHE LEFT GOT A JAMACIN DR WHO CHANGED MY MEDS I SLEPT IN HOSPITAL FOT FIRST MONTH THEY GAVE ME THEM IN BED, I WAS THEN TAKEN TO GENERAL HOSPITAL OVERNIGHT FOR CHECK OVER AS LOST WEIGHT ANYHOW JAMACAIN DR LEFT THEN ANOTHER OVER 3 MONTHS BUILT ME UP AND LET ME HOME ON THE ABOVE, I FEEL AWFULL, I TOLD THEM THAT BUT THEY SAID SAY ON IT, I GOT A CPN VISIT ONCE WHEN I GOT HOME AND HE NEVER CAME AGAIN, FOR ONCE I WOULD LIKE SOME ADVICE AS IVE ALWAYS TOOK WHAT DR HAS PRESCRIBED BUT I FEEL ALMOST SUICIDAL ON ABOVE, I SLEEP THROUGH AND MISS DOSES CAN SLEEP 20 HOURS DONT WANT TO AWAKE WHEN AWAKE JUST WANT TO GO BACK TO SLEEP, I KNOW I HAVE TO TRY DEAL WITH THE ANXIETY , ITS ONLY THING THATS STOPPED I HAVENT HAD A PANIC ATTACK BUT NOT LEFT HOME, FEEL A WEIRDO, USELESS, GUILT, LOST IN LIFE NOW, HARDLY KNOW WHAT DY IT IS, FEEL SEDATED ALL THE TIME, HATE MYSELF , EVEN FEEL I DESERVE THIS TORTURE AND PUNISHMENT IM ENDURING, NOT GOT 1 FRIEND IN THE WORLD, DONT WANT TO SEE OR TALK TO ANYONE, WHATS UP WITH ME ??? IS THERE ANYONE COULD TELL ME IF ANY OF ABOVE DRUGS COULD BE FEEDING THE DEPRESSION I COULD CUT DOWN ON AS BEFORE I WENT IN HOSP I WAS ONLY ON 4 DIAZAPAM A DAY AND A DIFFERENT ANTI DEPRESSANT ? THIS IS FIRST TIME IVE SAT UP FROM LAYING POSITION FEEL THE LAZIEST PERSON IN WORLD BEATING MYSELF UP OVER EVERYTHING IN LIFE, THE TEARS HAVE STOPPED BUT NT THE EMMOTIONS I WANT TO CRY, I KNOW I HAVE TO PUT MY ANXIETY DEPRESSION AND BERIEVEMENT ALL IN ORDER AND I DONT KNOW HOW OR WHERE TO START, SUFFERING FROM VIVID NITEMARES YET WHEN I AWAKE I JUST WANT TO GO BACK TO SLEEP AND GOD FORGIVE ME WISH I WERE DEAD.........IS ALL THE FEELINGS JUST ME BEING DEPRESSED OR COULD ANY OF THE ABOVE BE MAKING IT WORSE AS I FEEL A ZOMBIE ON EVERYTHING, DONT SHOWER NOTHING, COULD ANYONE PLEASE TELL ME IF ANY OF THE ABOVE I COULD CUT DOWN ON ? I DONT KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT DRUGS JUST ALWAYS BELIEVED WHAT DR PRESCRIBED WOULD BE RIGHT BUT I CANT CARRY ON LIKE THIS, IN HOSPITAL THEY WOKE ME IN BED WITH MEDICATION AND SAID DRINK PLENTY WATER AND BACK TO SLEEP AGAIN NOW IM HOME IM SLEEPING THROUGH DOSES NOT KNOWING WHETHER TO CATCH UP OR NOT TAKE ETC, I FEEL LOST I CANT EXPLAIN , I WOULD BE VERY GRATEFULL ON WHAT TO CUT DOWN ON JUST TO GET UP OUT OF BED I HAVE TO KEEP BLISTER PACK IN BED AS IM NEVER UP TO EVEN PUT ON A TV RADIO ETC, NO INTEREST IN NOTHING, NOT EVEN LOOKING FOR ENJOYMENT JUST 1 BIT OF NORMALITY, IS THERE ANYONE BEEN ON ABOVE ANY OF THE DRUGS THATS MADE THEM FEEL THIS TERRIBLE THAT I COULD STOP ???? ANY HELP WOULD BE VERY GREATFULL? I DONT KNOW IF JUST ME BUT IT SEEMS A VERY LOT TO TAKE ? MORNING , 12 NOON, 6 O CLOCK AND BEDTIME? THANKYOU VERY MUCH WITH KINDEST REGARDS
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smc89344 neilpleasehelp
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I'm sorry to hear you're going through this rough time in your life. Know you're not alone. There are many others like you and I who suffer different degrees of depression and anxiety.
Firstly I would suggest you seek other advice from another doctor...all those meds don't seem right. You are living like a drugged up zombie. That's no way to live. I also suggest you to inquire about seeing a Psychotherapist, Psychologist or Psychiatrist.
Don't just stop ur meds as that could be dangerous to your health and well being. But I think they would have to take u safely off some of those drugs bc sleeping 20 hours isn't normal. Once you get on a good track and dose of meds that don't make u feel these ways...cognitive therapy and exercise would benefit you. Exercise helps release serotonin and would increase endorphins.
Don't give up. Reaching out is the first step. Find another doctor and get on a waiting list to see a specialist.
Keep in touch. And stay strong. You're not alone.
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Just focus on you and getting the proper care. I just felt that all these meds you're on seem so tranquilizers and it's sad how you can't even enjoy a full day.
Hope things work out and get better for you.
Sandi
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Do you have a therapist or a counsellor or someone who is trained to help?
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