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My first couple episodes of SVT were very frightening. Made me feel faint although I never did but they sent me into panic attacks and I rode in an ambulance twice. The two scariest times I've ever had in my entire life! I'm on meds now and I rarely have them. I have been having a fast heart rate getting out of bed in the mornings lately but I'm not sure they are SVTs because my heart rate only goes up with exertion. Also been having a hard time getting deep breaths for months. Anyway, I've had a lot of anxiety lately and when I drove to town today I was EXTREMELY anxious. It was like the driving episodes I had three years ago right after I first started having SVT's. I was so afraid to go anyway in fear I would have them. I really got a handle on it though and have been very active, driving fine, etc up until recently. I guess I have a fear that something isn't right with me but I just don't know what it is. I fear I am becoming agoraphobic. I hate going in grocery stores anymore. I just feel anxious and hurry very quickly throwing things in my cart because I just want to hurry and get the heck out of there. The worst time for me is at the checkout line. I try to stand there relaxed and look like I'm not anxious but inside I'm like "Hurry up, I gotta get out of here before I start feeling weird, faint, or my heart starts racing!". I know that sounds crazy because I'm rarely having any SVT's anymore but I just feel so anxious. Today, I ordered groceries online from Walmart so all I had to do was drive the four miles, park and have them load into my car. Nice, should be relaxing, right? Well, I was a nervous wreck the whole time I was driving. I'm not afraid to drive, feel confident behind the wheel with my driving skills, etc and I actually and to remind myself to slow down a bit as I was speeding a little. I just wanted to get back home as soon as possible. I know my heart rate was around 110 or so, I wasn't having a SVT. Just felt incredibly anxious. Just pulling up at a red light made it even worse. I even pulled over in a parking lot once even though I was only a mile from home because I was afraid I might start feeling faint because I felt so incredibly anxious. It's really hard to describe how I felt. I can't put it into words. I seem okay after I got home. I didn't take my blood pressure but I know it would have been elevated. I have been taking a little Xanax again lately. Haven't taken any in almost three years. Swore I wouldn't again but I've been a basket case lately. I took one when I got home and I feel relaxed now. Guess I should have taken it before I went driving. Isn't it RIDICULOUS that I can't even relax while only driving a few miles? It was like torture I tell you. Can anyone relate to this? Probably not, I'm very weird I think. LOL I just want my life back. I used to go to the gym a few times a week and now I'm afraid to really do anything. I know if I have a SVT when I'm out that I can more than likely break it with my maneuver like always. I don't really feel like I'm that afraid I will have them but something is causing this anxiety.
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