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Ever since last February I've been watching what I eat to the point that I lost 94 lbs this past year. My doctor and therapist aren't too happy, but I keep telling them I don't have an eating disorder. I have never made myself purposely sick after, just watched what I eat. I guess it may have been a bit overly cautious..
Anyways, both of them have told me to eat unhealthy a few times a week to prove to myself that I won't die. My echo in September said my heart had no real issues, no blockages either.. Yet every single time I eat greasy food, I get so nervous and it's guaranteed a panic attack that night when I wake up in the middle of the night.
My dads bringing pizza and wings in about an hour. I'm forcing myself to eat. At this point I'm just terrified. Does anyone else get this way to eat, feeling like a slice of pizza will end in a heart attack? Will drinking water make it get through my system faster? I get a racing heartbeat for probably an entire day after eating bad. Not sure if it's anxiety or what.. Anyone else? I'm freaking out knowing that Its almost time.
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