Anyone NOT had any side effects on Citalopram?

Oh and by the way Rick yes if you could try and sort out Wills teeth as well that would be good 😁

Paul you are amazing! I felt so happy reading that! Worry is such a pointless exercise isn't it. If only we could believe that when we're worrying, lol 😉 It's onwards & upwards from now on!

Rick, I do agree with what you say, I found the reassurances very useful at the start but personally I think I'm reading too much into things now so I need to change my mindset methinks, although I've never watched Master chef 🍗🍳🍖 so I suppose I've got something in my favour 😂

Sending everyone a lovely calm night 🌛

Loulyn x

Loulyn I read too much into things as well.

Have just given myself a facial, manicure and painted my toenails bright red! 💅 I know that's pink fingernails but its the closest emoji I could find! 😃

That's my girl Matilda 😉 Bet you feel fab now 😜

I think I'll do the same, a nice wee bit of pampering sounds good 💅👣

Loulyn x

Hi bigmag.

Just wanted to up pick your theme of being positive. Have you looked into mindfulness ?

Good advice I've picked up from reading up on mindfulness is whatever you are feeling accept it don't fight it but dont dwell on it or analyse it and then focus on something else.

There is a real danger at times of over thinking and making your thoughts define you when they are just

thoughts

As we all agree I think the importance of this forum is mutual support and long may it continue :0)

Good to hear from you bigmag

Take care

Mike

Hi guys,

Thanks for the support.

Day 6 tomorrow & I accept there sin ya quick fix but I just want something to happen.

Agreed 10mg is a starting dose but I've to revisit the docs in less than 2 weeks to check the reaction to the Cit & have the dosage upped.

Work wasn't great today, quite a lot of added pressure, which doesn't help, tried speaking yo my boss yo advise, but on reflection I shouldn't have bothered, they seemed to understand then just made comments that through me completely off track...

I will let you know of any developments.

Cheers guys

Hi all,

Lots of positive thinking which is fantastic, well done and Paul so glad your stag went well and I hope you all left my native land in a respectable state LOL so happy with your new found confidence and outlook, you are strong and will get there, as will everyone else on her at whatever stage your at, remember perseverance and positive thinking will help you be yourselves again. we will all be here to help you thru any glitches you may have, but u may not have any. xx

I am starting a mindfulness course in a few weeks, to hopefully help me in the future, so will let you all know how it goes, my OH arranged it for me, and it follows on from my course on Lifestyle management which was really good as well, as lots of folk just like me and it was so good to bounce ideas and discuss experiences and how to move forward. I think when I was bad with the anxiety back in November I put my name forward for just about anything I thought would help, now its course after course but I am benefiting and enjoying them.

Bigmag good to hear from you again, I hope your still doing well xx

Mike_0

We have all felt as you have but please persevere as we all take different times to adjust, so it may not be too long for you, just stay strong and know it will get better.

loulyn77566

I am liking your attitude too, very positive well done and great advice !!!

Richard

I love and remember this post from Grace, I was on here with Grace and Chris when Grace just started out and Grace was maybe one of the worst sufferers I had spoken to at the time, she had a really tough time but stayed strong in a really tough fight, and now she is fab and happy,which makes me so happy, and to hear her posting like this is such a pleasure to hear, so defo light at the end of the tunnel

Spence

You have done so well to get this far don't give up now, do speak with your doctor as I was like this and in week 6 I woke up just normal one morning after been rubbish right up till then, and I have never looked back, so stay strong a bit longer you have done so well getting this far. I hope your day is here really soon x

Hi Doug,

Judging by the way your feeling ur score wont be much different to the one at your doctors don't worry about that, u will benefit from counselling so don't give up.

Yes CHRIS WOW over a 100 pages, and we have been through thick and thin together so thank you for all your support in getting me to where I am now !!! before August last year I didn't know this sort of anxiety existed it took me by shock and I just didnt know how to handle it, the doctors just wanted to give me tablets and that scared me even more due to the anxiety, its such a lonely illness as you cant really explain it in a way that anyone whom has never had it could possibly understand, so it was a life line for me finding this forum and having you help me not feel so alone, and understanding it more. Now I feel I would not have made it without this forum as I was so scared, and I think this is why I keep in touch, to ensure others like me starting out know there is a way forward and its not permanent. I feel so good now and thanks Chris again and Thanks to everyone whom helped me when I was at my worse.

Matilda

I hope your getting there and feeling better, please stay strong as you will make it, I have had the out of body sort of experience you have had but they are gone now, I used to feel like I was there with my friends but on the outside looking in, it was really weird, glad its gone lol

Ally

Maybe a visit to the doctor is on the cards I haven't experience anything like that myself but always best to check with the doctor.

Good attitude Loulyn everyone is different and all experiences are different and different bodies take various times to adjust, do read up on mindfulness or try to get on a mindfulness course to help you in the future, and everyone practice your deep belly breathing, its so calming at the bad times and any time !!

Well have a good week ahead everyone and stay strong you are all amazing people all here for each othere and if you can help just one person then that's such a great thing.

Big Hugs everyone

Anne

Anne, I love reading your posts & I will look into mindfulness as I'm in the mood to try lots of things such as meditation, tai chi, CBT etc. And when I feel anxiety starting up I try to remember the things that help & the one I always use is your recommendation of breathing in the golden sunshine 🌞 & breathing out the grey/black smokey yukky stuff 😤

And guys, I know I had a moan this morning about feeling rubbish but tonight I feel absolutely fine 😆 Life is full of surprises!

Wishing you all a peaceful night,

Loulyn x

Evening (or should I say morning) everyone, hope you've had a good weekend.

Paul - so pleased you had a great stag do, and that it has made you more positive about the way forward! Well done!

Anne - thanks for the words of encouragement about the counselling etc, I hope they do offer me some help as I really think I'm going to need it.

Day 24 I think for me today on 20mg, and I'm gutted about how I've felt today. I woke up feeling OK for a change, and was even quite chirpy for most of the morning, but not long after arriving at the destination for our family day out today I felt it all change and couldn't do anything to stop it. Suddenly what was meant to be an amazing time with my wife & children became a hard slog which ruined my enjoyment and affected how my wife felt through the day too. The kids did still have a great day so that's a good thing, I just wish I'd been able to get as much out of it as they did I could have cried at the end of the day I was so upset about what I had just missed out on, but had to hold it together in front of everyone.

Take care all.

Doug. x

Sad to say that right now I feel like I haven't made any progress in the last 2 weeks, feel just the same and have waited until my wife has gone to bed and have pretty much just downed a bottle of wine in the last 30 mins. What a joke, I know it's pathetic but I still wanted to do it to try and make me feel better which I don't. Maybe more will help.

Hi Doug

Unfortunately alcohol doesn't help us at all, there will be more family days out that you will enjoy and you will get there I promise, I felt just the same as you for ages, in fact I almost was going to give up as I thought I couldn't live my life if this was it anymore, but I knew that was stupid so I persevered and reaped my reward, normality whatever that is ha ha but just been back to myself is amazing and I will never complain about my other pains again, anxiety/depression etc is the worse kind of torture ever and only those whom have it can appreciate that, so please, please persevere Doug you will make it and be you again, and have a great life with your family, get the counselling in fact ask for everything, anything that will help. you deserve it. stay strong and practice the deep breathing.

Loulyn

You are so upbeat and it makes me happy to read you are enjoying the breathing and I love the way you word the out breathing - grey/black smokey yukky stuff - lol Its so good to hear also that you improved over the day yesterday, this is so encouraging, so I believe you will persevere and get there too. we all deserve it.

Remember everyone and those just starting out, we all take different times to adjust to CIT so because you have read about someone having an awful time there is also the folk having a semi awful time and those whom have the odd headache with very little side effects, so on here its not meant to be disheartening its just that the worse of us need the support, so you may not have as bad side effects as some. xx

big hugs everyone

Anne

great posts Anne - thank you so much for the words of encouragement

Doug .... I've been there. The frustration is immense and I completely understand what you're feeling and saying. Its so hard but try to look at it as something that will pass, a blip in your lifeline so to speak. I know when feeling like this it's not easy to do that - I force myself to though. You will improve and get better and as Anne says then you can truly enjoy the family days.

Matilda - I'll give Will a call and sort him out then lol.

Loulyn - thats great you're feeling better, long may that continue

Off to work for me so I hope we all have a decent day. I'm still shaky and nervy etc etc but thankfully only on the inside!

take care all

Rick

morning everyone. ive noticed a lot of us day30+ are having a ruff time atm, thinking we aren't making any progress and feeling low. well after speaking to me wife she has pointed out how much progress I've actually made. before starting on cit I was suffering quite badly with social and general anxieties, I didnt want to leave the house, my eating had gone nuts and I spent all day pulling my own head apart. now im leaving the house without a second thought and my over thinking has calmed down. I suppose we are all waiting for that day we fwel "normal" again, being hard on ourselves for the small blips we are having and forgetting how we used to feel when things were worse. maybe its about time we all gave ourselves a break, if we had a broken leg and had to spend 8weeks in plaster would we upset ourselves every time we had an itch and couldnt scratch it ? No !! once our plaster was removed would we get angry because we still find it hard to walk ? No ! this is because we accept that there is a process our bodies need to go throught and we need to giive it time to heal. this is just the same only theres no broken leg,no plaster and the world cant see how much you hurt. like a broken bone this isnt a quick fix, time is a great healer all we need is a little patients.

hope you all have a wonderful day

ally xx

Hi Everyone!!!

YEAHHHHH PAUL! proud you didnt need the diazepam, but at least you had the option. Glad you had a good weekend and managed to relax, as i mentioned before your family will be there through thick and thin just takes this type of situation to make you realse. I started the gym again 2 weeks ago and you will be amazed how much it helps, i tend to do alot of classes for an hour at a time 2-3 times a week and i'm not going to lie my head feels clear and obviously the CIT will be helping.

just an up-date people, i am feeling fab for a monday morning which is quite surprising considering i had a terrible sleep last night. Yesterday when i was out with the mother shopping i felt quite spaced out, like i wasnt on this planet. I try to blame all these symtoms on CIT but sometimes feel like im loosing the plot, does anyone else feel like this??

thanks xx

Good morning everyone,

Anne, thanks so much for your words of encouragement yesterday. I am going to stick with it, but I honestly don't think I could do it with everyone's support here.

There were some really interesting comments on here yesterday about positivity, mindfulness and mutual support, and I'm going to try to combine those today as I inch closer to the 6-week mark.

Ally, your comment earlier was bang on - it really resonated with me. Firstly for checking with your wife and realising that you *are* improving, even though you might not always feel like it. Funnily enough I asked my wife a similar question yesterday - I was keen to know how she thought I was on Saturday while out with the family - she said I seemed normal and very engaged with the kids (whereas in my head I was all over the place). It's funny to hear how our inner turmoil isn't always reflected in how we behave. I also liked your broken leg analogy, and you're right that we'd go much easier on ourselves if we were in plaster.

G46689, the spaced out / losing it feeling you describe is pretty common on this forum. I have it myself and Matilda and Rick too. For me it's associated with really strong anxiety, but it's also a side effect of Citalopram. What I keep telling myself is that it's not dangerous and it's easier to go with it rather than fight it. (I'm not always successful but I'm trying!)

Rick, Mike - I hope my fellow almost-6-weekers are doing ok today?

Doug - having a drink to unwind during this difficult time is definitely not pathetic, it's completely understandable. Please don't give yourself a hard time on top of what you're already going through. Try to let yourself be reassured by the other wise folk on here that things will improve before too long.

Ok, I better start doing some work. I hope everyone has as good a day as possible. Allow yourself to think positively, remember Ally's "broken leg" and look forward to a day soon when we'll all be gamboling through the fields with our plaster cast off!

Spence xx