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I was just wandering whether what I feel is alright, also I'm 16 so is it just like a part of growing up?
Basically for the past 3 years or more I've been slowly losing emotions.
It started off with severe sadness until I wanted to commit suicide a year later and then I just started feeling less and less until I stopped feeling really. On a day to day basis I just go through my life doing whatever I have to but I feel no satisfaction or happiness or sadness for that matter, I don't feel alive at all. I've been faking emotions to blend in with people, and I just believe that there is ultimately no purpose to my existence.
My grades are getting worse but I just don't care(I want to care, and I know it's wrong but I can't help it) and so I just sleep when I'm not at school. I've also started being really problematic at home but I don't know how to stop, my parents don't know what to do and I can't bring myself to care, they try to guilt trip me and try to get an emotional response out of me but I just feel so distant. I don't know, I just want to start feeling or I want life to end. Am I depressed? What is this??
any responses appreciated
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