AWARENESS OF THOUGHTS, getting worse everyday.
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I'm sorry for writing this here but i seriously can't do this any longer.
I'm constantly aware of my thinking and can't focus on anything but my thinking and what thoughts do i have or will i have.For the past few weeks (3-4),i can't focus on anything but my thoughts even now i am struggling to write this.
For me it's currently 4 am and i can't sleep because of it. I hate the fact that i am thinking and keep being aware of it. When I'm on my automatic mode of thoughts which is when I'm not thinking about this problem i keep thinking of something about this problem which results in me being aware once again. I'm analysing everything about my thoughts how i think, why i think , if i am myself or not, remembering some stuff like "you also think when you write something or talk to someone" which honestly that wasn't a problem until this week and made me think of this even more or made my awareness more knowledgeable. I keep memorising my thoughts before my awareness or even after, is automatically and i can't stop it. I don't know what to do sleep was my only option of peace and i can't even have that. My brain is seriously going crazy and it keeps going crazier and crazier. I also envy the fact that other people are going along with their lives, focusing on their tasks while I'm over here going crazy and crazier. I need to start high school in a few days and I'm scared i can't be normal again since i can't focus on talking with someone else or even focusing alone.I just want my problem to be fixed and be a normal person again, is this too much for me to ask? I don't want to do something bad like dying since i have parents and they are already stressed with their stuff not only that but I'm afraid even if i do die I'm still going to have this problem. Have a great night for whoever is reading this, i don't think i listed everything since I'm forgetting quite a lot of stuff with this problem.
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AKIRAR
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Please I'm begging.
jan34534 AKIRAR
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I am so sorry you are going through this. Have you talked to your parents about this? If you can talk to them it would be a good idea so they can get you some support.
you could feel a lot better with help. You could learn how to manage this.
sometimes, when people have anxiety, they get these racing thoughts. Have a talk with your parents. Take care of yourself, and I hope you feel better soon!
AKIRAR jan34534
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Hello there, thanks for reading my troubles. Yes, i did talk with my parents about this since i never had this problem I do remember having troubles with my white noises or other stuff that were about my body. But it was never this bad. I thought about them but i could sleep at night or focus on other things and things got better but since this came is killing me.
Worst part is that they don't support me.
I went to a psychiatrist and they described some medicine and they don't want to give me the medicine.
ayassresearch AKIRAR
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I'm really sorry to hear that you're going through this. It's important to seek immediate help from a mental health professional or a counselor who can provide you with guidance and support. They can help you manage these intrusive thoughts and feelings. Remember, you don't have to go through this alone, and there is help available to get you back on track. Reach out to someone you trust or a mental health hotline for immediate assistance. Your well-being is important, and there are people who want to help you through this.
AKIRAR ayassresearch
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Thank you very much for reading this and for the guidance. I seriously am going crazier and now every second of the day is about my thinking and about my awareness of me thinking and so on. Once again i can't sleep, and it's 3 am for me. Sorry i couldn't reply sooner because i was crying and tried to sleep yesterday and couldn't. I don't think i can get trough this and I'm so scared that i can't sleep ever again or be normal again. I took some Zoloft today and some melatonin for kids but it doesn't do anything only making me sleepier and my mind won't stop working. i swear i don't know what to do.
ayassresearch AKIRAR
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Do not worry man !! Seek professional help to address your anxiety and insomnia. Practice relaxation techniques and maintain a consistent sleep routine to improve sleep quality. You will be normal again !!
AKIRAR ayassresearch
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I did seek professional help, i just hate the fact that i have to fight to be my normal self again. I envy the fact that people don't have this problem, i just want to be normal again. Why do i have to struggle so much..