Bad day.
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Really struggling today. Anxiety and stress are sky high, 80% of which are things I cannot control. I'm not sleeping as well as I could; I'm waking frequently and then spend the next half an hour to an hour halfway between sleep and awake, which makes me feel out of sorts.
My eyes feel extremely tired and heavy. I feel like they are jumping but so far my vision isn't so it feels almost like a muscular feeling (or it could be psychological,) and when I exert myself more I see flashing lights again. This had gone away but with recent events and stress it has come back.
The sensation of feeling like I am on a boat comes and goes but with my tires state it makes it feel a little worse.
I had been doing much much better but I have had a few personal set backs. Outwardly I may seem alright but inwardly I am not dealing well with stress.
I am checking things a little again to 'see' how woozy I am etc.
My body just feels so exhausted.
Dealing with stress right now feels extra hard. I don't really want to say what is happening - but it would test anyone's stress levels I think.
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collette64 Sillymop
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Sillymop collette64
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Thanks Collette it really is horrible but it is also nice to know that you aren't the only one.
anxietysite123 Sillymop
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Is there a way for you to just take the day off and relax, or Atleast try to? I'm reading a new book that talks about stress in a chapter. Its along the lines of "don't look at it as a setback or a problem that was thrown your way, look at it and see if there is a lesson to be learned from it".
This is a stressful time for a ton of people, not saying your stress is the same because I dont know the problem, but you're not alone. Just turn that problem into a positive as much as you possibly can. Don't let something no matter how big, mentally ruin you. It will never be worth it. Get some rest. Try some chamomile tea before bed. It not only is known to calm the nerves, but also makes me sleepy when I drink it.
Sillymop anxietysite123
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Thanks for replying
Yes, christmas definitely adds to the mix as I am sure it does for everyone (or at least most.)
My symptoms had gotten to a stage where they were much, much better. Not so long ago it was more of less gone. I felt better in myself and more certain that it was anxiety and I was pushing forward.
As you say, everyone has stresses. I don't really want to go on about mine as I am sure no one wants to trawl through all of that!!! But it has been one extremely stressful situation after another this year; the most recent just feeling all too much for now.
I then get my symptoms back and I then add health anxiety into the mix: "something must be wrong," "I have been misdiagnosed" "I am sick I know I can feel it." etc etc... all intrusive, unhelpful thoughts and perhaps fueled by lack of sleep.
I do suffer from depression at times and it is here now which makes me just want to sit and cry.
I can't really take a day off either.
collette64 Sillymop
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borderriever Sillymop
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Have you had a course of CBT with a CPN , there are quite a few coping techniques that could help you
BOB
Sillymop borderriever
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Hello borderriever yes I have had CBT. It helped me a lot but some things are still quite difficult. I am currently having counselling too
Anxious_Nick Sillymop
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Hello SillyMop!
This time of year is very stressful for many people, and I think particularly difficult for people with AD and related conditions. The thing with AD is that nothing ever seems to go well, or go right, or be okay; and that mentality doesn't only continue during times of festivity, it can actually be amplified. This is why having a support network is so important. Even though having other people to support you doesn't always do the trick, it's the best medicine we have (for now) to fight our mental bully(ies). People without friends, family, or a partner suffer greatly during this time of year - and I always try to think of them in a special way.
That was mostly just me thinking out loud. Haha. As for your recent stress, SillyMop, I can only imagine the hustle and bustle of this time of year doesn't help very much. So try to take it slow and, when possible, crack a smile - even if you don't feel like it. A smile can be a powerful thing. And no matter what you're going through, just remember this: every time I thought something wasn't going to end, it ended. The panic attacks never lasted forever. Every time I thought I'd die, I didn't. Even right now I'm a little worried because I've had some tummy issues the last few days, and I'm thinking about all kinds of sinister conditions it could be. But I know, deep down inside, that this too will pass. It just takes time. And so your health anxities will settle back down to normal in time, Mopsy, and so will your stress levels. You'll have periods of joy and contentment again, and eventually some stress and paraonia will haunt you once more...but only for a bit. It's a cycle. I believe that all people live out this cycle, but people with AD have to live it out more constantly than other people. That really stinks, of course, but it isn't the worst lot in life I don't think.
I hope your stressful situations cool off soon, my friend, and that your holiday season is whatever you hope for it to be. Be well and much love to you.
Warm hugs xx
Sillymop Anxious_Nick
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Nick thank you for taking the time to respond to me, especially today. This actually did make me smile and so I am very grateful to you.
I am sorry to hear of your tummy troubles. I hate when these things come along and our anxiety suddenly stirs..that horribly familiar panic sets in. I know it well and you have my sympathy because it really isn't easy. As you say, things are harder with AD and a simple bug or just feeling a little under par can bring on a host of anxiety and further symptoms.
I think though that you sound like you are tackling your anxiety very well and I am sure your tummy is fine and will get back to normal very soon
This time of year does underline a few things.. It is my first Christmas Since the death of my relative....and while he was never really present, his unquestionable absence this year is very final. I don't think I quite accept (or allow myself to accept,) that impact it has on me even now. But I immerse myself in those who love me and whom I also love. Positivity keeps me going with this, as does following my 'moral compass' - I do what I think is right. I take care of those I love.
I hope you have a good Christmas, however you may spend it please know that there is someone out there who is very grateful for your kindness and all the wonderful advice you have given me this year.
Warm hugs xxx