Bad drunk

This is exactly the way I behaved with my husband. There would come a point when I would switch and become a hateful shrew.  I was a different person telling him everything that was wrong with him and that he should just get out if he didn’t like my drinking. The next morning I would feel this shame and dread for when he would tell me in great detail all the things I said and did that hurt him and made him feel small.  This broke my heart over and over again.  I tried many things, for many years, but now am on Naltrexone and the Sinclair Method.  It’s been three months and I see a big difference.  You take one pill one hour before you have your first drink of the day.  Over time, it blocks the pleasure that your brain feels from the alcohol and slowly you want less and less alcohol.  For some it takes a year, but in the meantime, with conscious consumption, things change.  At least they are changing for me.  Read about it. The program has a 78% success rate.  I believe it will save my life. 😀

I'll second the suggestion about The Sinclair Method. From over 300 drinks per month, I dropped down to 12 per month using TSM and I've been holding that level for about a year. This month so far I had most of one beer and poured out the rest because it tasted off. 

The binge drinkers that have used it write that it quashes blackout drinking pretty effectively. I was a daily drinker myself, didn't really run into any blackouts.

Are you in the US, UK, Oz?

Great replies from ADEfree and sheryl. Good medicine they take and Sinclair Method spectacular success. Best of luck.

I too was often like that years ago. I used to wonder why my husband was distant with me after heavy drinking. I honestly couldnt remember what I’d said or done. I’d be mortified when he told me what I’d said. I often had complete blanks, not knowing how I’d got home, where I’d been.

Youve had some good replies about TSM. I used medication too which turned my life around. I took medication, acamprosate (campral), an anti craving drug. Unlike TSM, you don’t drink alcohol at all. It worked for me and I can now drink responsibly.

Good luck

It seems the pleasure you used to get from alcohol has ceased.

I hope you can find a way to stop to save your life and your marriage.