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At the risk of moaning, or feeling sorry for myself I want to write a few things..I am 36, married with 2 daughter's and a step daughter. Both my girls have moved out, my husband has a brain injury and collapsed vertebrae in his back. We are in debt with the local council, we have letters and visits from bailiffs. I can't talk to my husband about anything, he gets angry with me and makes his head hurt. I was in a violent relationship for 13 years, I am insecure, awkward, tough but weak and I have no self confidence whatsoever. I actually hate myself, who I've become..the doctor has put me on some anti depressants but I'm having side effects so don't know if I can still take them..I can't see any hope and feel broken. I miss my girls so much it feels like my heart has been ripped out. My oldest daughter was 18 at the weekend, her dad turned up (the man who abused me) and turned me into a gibbering wreck..he didn't even have to talk to me. I have been drunk since Wednesday and its starting to hurt but it's what I know. I am on the road to self destruct and have nothing to live for. My husband and I aren't getting on, he blames me for everything and is so hard on me all the time. I act tough but as you can probably tell I'm really not..I'm broken. I'm trying not to moan on Facebook as my friends think it's funny to wind me up about how miserable I am all the time, so I'm sorry to offload on you all..it kind of helps in a selfish kind of way. X
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