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I have been on citalopram for 10 years, was diagnosed officially with depression at 17 but can pinpoint it back to when I was about 13. I've spent most/all of my adult life on them.
I completed 16 months counselling a couple of years ago and managed to come down from 20mg to 10mg and had no problems with this. I was feeling like the depression was manageable around November 2014 and decided to try and come off them completely.
I guess I thought I was cured or something. I wasn't entirely sure I still had depression as I had been on them so long. I went to my doctor and got the drops to try and cut down.
I went to 5mg for 2 and a half months and felt ok at first, at least for a few weeks. I started to notice a change after that and symptoms I have always experienced with depression returned; fatigue, irritability, low mood, feelings of worthlessness, thoughts of suicide, lack of concentration. I have also suffered with anxiety and a feeling that I'm not quite here since coming off them which were not my original symptoms of depression.
I persevered and came off them completely around 3 weeks ago. I have pretty much hit rock bottom. It has affected my work so much I have been called into performance meetings. I am kicking myself about this. I have now told my employer and will be taking sometime off to sort myself out. I've been back on 10mg for a week now and no changes as yet but I know it can take 4 weeks.
I guess my questions are;
What should I do in the meantime to elevate my mood?
Has anyone else relapsed after trying to come off citalopram?
How long has it took for citalopram to start working again after coming off completely?
Has anyone successfully came off them after taking them for 10 years? I can't help think I will have to take these for life now.
Sorry about the rant, I'm not sure what information is relevant. I'm at a complete loss with this. Any help would be greatly appreciated.
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