Bad thoughts over an incident

This is a hard one to answer and if you have actually punished yourself in some way everyday for the two years since this happened then you probably need professional help.  Tell me how did you learn that YOU left a gas ring on after you used the gas stove? Is it even true?  First of all I think that anyone who works with the disabled is an angel.  It takes a very special dedicated person to work helping others. Second, you are not familiar with using gas to cook on, but you didn't refuse to make the meal that was needed.  You tried, you figured it out and you did it. Good for you.  No one went hungry.  Third, you accidentally left the gas on. Guess what?  I have a gas stove that I cook on everyday.  When I use a low flame sometimes I don't see it and I have left the gas flame on for hours and even overnight and so has my husband.  My bad!  You accidentally forgot something that you were not familiar with and nothing bad happened!  Are you not allowed to forget something or to accidentally do something?  Answer this question.  If you think that you are not allowed to forget things or not allowed to do something accidently then please tell me why you are so different from everyone else in the world.  This was not a deliberate act by you and no harm came to anyone except to yourself because of your sense of guilt.  What is the service user, with mild learning difficulties, responsible for in his own flat?   Do you expect perfection in everyone?  Has anyone let you down because they forgot something?  Did you forgive them?  Have you been hurt accidentally by someone?  Did you forgive them?  Did the service user forgive you for this accident or not?  You have not forgiven yourself and that is what you need to work on.  Tell me how is it that you punish yourself.  Are you a cutter like my son was or do you think badly about yourself daily and feel worthless?  How did you feel when you were helping special needs individuals?  When one helps others it usually makes them feel good about themselves.  The more one helps another, even to simply make a stranger smile back, the more money in the bank of feeling good.  I think that when ever you even think about punishing yourself for this accident you need to do immediately do something helpful to put money in that feel good bank.  It doesn't have to be for someone else.  Clean out that messy drawer that has bothered you.  Good $$ in the bank.  Okay, that's enough from Mom.  You have my best wishes to get on with your life, forgive yourself, and have some FUN.