Been on Sertraline for 8weeks for anxiety, still not myself, advice?

Hello, My name is Taylor and I am 20 years old and have been lurking this site for 2 months. I have always been one to have social anxiety but never something that being with family or going into a comfortable atmosphere couldnt fix this past year i finally started branching out and becoming more social and was the best self i could have ever been, i was truly happy. On october 23rd my entire life basically changed. I was with my boyfriend and all of a sudden i started feeling weird, sick to my stomach and dizzy. I went to his room and told him i was having some anxiety, usually it would be a stomach ache and pass. This time, i started hysterically crying because the anxiety was overwhelming and i went into a full blown panic attack. lost my coordination, vision, could not speak, was throwing up, limbs were tingling and numb. was rushed to the hospital, ruled it as a panic attack and was given xanax .25 mg and sent home. The following week was ok, slight anxiety but nothing crazy. then a day came about where i had to go to work and was so scared that i was going to have a panic attack that i did, and almost blacked out again. This was a friday, went home, took half of a .25mg xanax felt a little better. Then Sunday came around and my boyfriend asked me to come over to his place (the site of my first panic attack) and by association i freaked out. Long story short every morning after i was waking up with TERRIBLE anxiety lasting the entire day, every anxiety symptom you name it, nauseaous, gagging, shaking, crying, loss of breath, tight throat. I tried to fight it for a week thinking it would pass but then it developed into this depression/anxiety hybrid. I was crying non stop, was not eating, thankfully I had no trouble sleeping, the sight of anyone or anything made me nauseaous and sad and i basically wanted to die. I made an appointment with my GP and she put me on 25mg of sertraline that I started on November 5th along with more .25mg xanax to take till it kicks in. I honestly could not tell you what side effects I had vs what my anxiety was causing cause it was seriously that bad. I know for a fact it made my aversion to food even worse though and anxiety much higher and also muscle twitches and jerks. A week or two went by with really no change, then week three i felt better, i got out the house and my mood lifted, still had a tight throat 24/7 and mild anxiety and little appetite but i started getting hope but still nowhere near better. Then a week later i CRASHED, back to square one with that terrible depression hybrid. Went back to GP and we raised it to 50mg. The following three days were the worst of my LIFE, i literally thought i was going to be put in a mental hospital i was having such bad thoughts and anxiety. the past couple of weeks have been a rollercoaster. I have a better lifted mood about everything, depression seems to have lifted somewhat but the anxiety is still here. I am able to enjoy things i used to more but always feel like im out of breath and dizzy and sometimes the anxiety builds up so much i just cry. I have to say i do feel a lot better than i was 8 weeks ago but no where near myself. At night i feel more relaxed and can actually do things, and have had some good days. Something that worries me is my appetite is so incredibly poor and im loosing a lot of weight that i cannot afford it has peaked some days where i can eat pretty well but not good. I have a lot more hope now and those hopeless feelings have gone quite a bit but i never feel relaxed and cant do much without being out of breath. All in all im scared and do not know what to do. i want my life back so badly. i am tired of waking up every morning and anxiety hitting me like a brick and sitting there for a long time shaking cause  dont know if i can even get up. I am in talk therapy as well but i really feel like it isnt doing that much. I am wondering if there are any success stories, if i should up my dose and most of all if this drug will ever help me feel like myself again?! 

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