Been taking 50mg valium for about 2 months, now really scared, please give me some advice.

Went to the GP today and told her everything, she has prescribed me 20mg a night for the next 4 days until I go back to university (on a reading week atm) and discuss it with my GP down there for a further prescription..

Whats your views on this?

That's great, because tapering from 20mg is a better starting point than 50mg. Get stable of 20mg and then start tapering progressively! I would say reduce 15-25% of your dosage every week and a half, but it could be too much. If it is, - 12,5% of the initial dosage every week or two. Don't do cold turkey. Never. 

Thanks Jim, hearing someone say 20mg is ok to go from 50 is quite a relief, I thought that this may be too little.. Do you think it's fine to keep going to the gym while going through this? I can't wait to be free from this, some of the horror stories actually made me feel like crying it was that scary. I just want to be off it completely ASAP and never take them or any benzo ever again.

Well, if your doc prescribed you 20mg, it should be fine. But ya you mught experience withdrawal physical and psychological symptoms, but don't worry, it's just because your body needs to adapt! Im currently and in a withdrawal process too. I know the feeling of being scared. But try not to lose yourelf into it. To cope with it I do a 5km 3-5 times a week, drink a lot of water, do breathing exercice when I feel angitated and tense, and I try to remember it's a withdrawal process and it will pass (on the short, med and long terms). And just started going to the gym lately. The one thing that kept me from going was the dizziness. I had an intense vertigo for about 1 month.  But don't stop living eventho it could be hard. Go outside and do some exercice. Don't isolate yourself. You don't have to be alone...and your definitly not  

She seemed quite uneducated in these cases so I just hope I'll be ok, I feel like I'm naturally quite an anxious person but overall I feel like I'm mentally quite strong if that makes sense? Meaning hopefully I'll be able to cope with the psychological symptons. I'm just worried of the physical symptons.. I usually go to the gym alot anyway and do quite vigirous weight training and light cardio (was even doing this fine while on 40mg valium.. which may seem odd, but I felt fine doing it?). Do you mind if we can keep in touch? it'd be nice to have someone to talk to regularly if I do start to suffer or get scared out of my control.. I have told my mum about it but I played it down alot saying it's just a sleeping aid that I need a couple of weeks to come off of to be careful, as the last thing I want to do is worry her. Also on another note, where does alcohol fall into this process? I'm supposed to be going out tonight, as it's my last night with my friends before returning to Univeristy.. what do you think I should do? Should I just make an excuse and avoid it? Or take 5mg valium and just not drink much?

psychoogical symptoms are hard to cope with when they last for long because of the long tapering process. Sometimes you might just feel like your drowning in them. But you might not have to go through all this. Just remember that anxiety, worry, fear, Internet increase the intensy of your symptoms. Dont mix alcohol with valium. Just dont. No, be honnest, tell your friend if you feel they should know. I told all my friends because they were asking me why I stopped drinking. A party is still "enjoyable" sober. Dont drink at all, just to make sure, since youre taking 20mg. And read this: http://www.benzo.org.uk/manual/bzcha01.htm

When you'll start to taper, you'll notice how your body react and you'll ajust your training in time. Ya we can keep in touch! My parents didnt quiet understand what I was good through, but they were there for me. About alcholol, I just reply in another message but the reply is waiting to be moderated since it contains a internet link so you can educate yourself with benzo withdrawal !

I have done quite a bit of research in the past 2 days because my minds been racing with worry.. seems to be alot of contradtictive information out there though. That ashton manual says that people found taking health supplements such as vitmains/minerals were found to be at best useless or actually harmful, yet I've read articles saying they help.. 

Ya it's confusing. Ashton manuel is a pertinent source, it's a complicated business since there are some many factors to take into consideration. Just forget about alcohol. Don't mix at all I suggest since your'e taking a high dose. A party can still be enoyable. And tell your friends if you feel like you should.  

Please don't do it ..your life is ruined if you do