been verry depressed for a while now, long story.
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first off i know i do not belong here, appologize for this, been searching online for help now for a while came accross this site.
basically since im just the kind of person that is only laughed at and noticed only by bullies that pretty sums it up. stuck isolated, friendless, relationship less. im sure all i need is to just find where i fit in, so far, well i just search and search. sorry i know im ranting on ill stop. i could just use a friend if nothing else.
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SteV3 jared72843
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There's always people around especially on websites like this one that you can confide in... We are all anonymous, well to a degree unless you start broadcasting where you live, but it is not recommended.
I have been depressed for years, bottled it all up, never even told anyone I was depressed deep down, but I expect we all are at some point in our lives. Mine, well it's been well over 3 decades - it was only last year in November, that I really came out with everything I had kept hidden from people, even friends on here.
I know it is not easy to cope with, I still get irrate over the stupidist little things, to me they are big, but when I sit down and look at the same situation again, I keep thinking why am I being like this. Why do you think you are laughed at? It may seem a stupid question coming from me. I am a happy go lucky sort of person, well when I am hiding the real truth.
Friendless, I can relate to you, over the years I lost all my friends.. at first it was because I moved away from my home town. Moved in with my girlfriends parents, and had no choice to make new friends, but over the years we have moved around that many times neither of us, have what we can call close friends. Or the ones we do have live miles away... hence, feeling isolated like yourself.
Society over the years has changed so much, I blame it mostly on the internet, it has made a society that feed off other peoples drama, which can be really bad. I read and think why would 2 people in the same room talk to one another over facebook?? To me, that is odd behaviour - and totally unsocialable, but thats my view, your's may differ, we are all different - it would be a strange world if we were all the same.
There are plenty of people on here that will become your friends, you certainly do not need to be isolated... I know that's easy for me to say, but I've been there myself. Do you mean you are bullied online, or outside? I know it goes on everywhere, I have never been in that situation, but you remind me of someone I used to know, along time ago.
You say you rant on, lol - You have just met me, I rant on about all sorts of things, and people even say my posts are so long, but informative - so it can't be all wrong. To be honest, I am glad you found this website - it will certainly open you up, especially to how others have coped in the same situation, you will be surprised.
Here's a fact for you... If you Google the word Depression it is the most looked up word on the net, sad but true. I'm on tablets for depression, they work but they do take quite awhile to have an effect on you. Other people have got out of depression by themselves, but online on the right websites you will find many friendships, I know many online, offline well that's another ball game so to speak.
I don't mind talking to you, we all have different stories to tell, mine are probably too long and drawn out, but you see I post all over these forums.
And Yes, you do belong here, Jared - don't feel like you want to be left out - there's no reason to be on here. We've all been down different roads and paths, but we all end up on here, some of us it is more like a lifetime and wayout in this world.
Anyway, take my advice and don't run from a friendly bunch that's on here!!
Last time I checked they were friendly! lol 

Regards,
Les.
lorraine52317 jared72843
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firstly you do belong here and there is absolutely no reason to apologise. I am not sure how old you are, but you will find your path in life. Real friends are few and far between for most of us. Feeling isolated and friendless can feel absolutely dreadful, especially when you are young. I recall one of my grandchildren saying 'I dont want loads of friends i just want one friend' she was bullied dreadfully at school. She is now a happy 16 year old with outside intetests and friends. Like you she found it difficult to fit in. My advice to you is the same advice i gave her.. firstly make a plan to restore your confidence. Eg she joined ameture dance and dramatics and started ice skating. (She met new friends this way) Bullies need to be tackled, if this is happening to you, let someone in authority know (don't be fearful make sure you report it) don't try too hard to get a friend, you will find them and that's a definite! Drop people that add nothing to your life eg. If they are making you feel bad. Stop isolating! There must be things you really enjoy, see if there are any clubs/groups in your area that you could join that enjoy the same things as you do. When you stop trying hard to fit in, you will find things a lot easier. New friends do not come and knock at our doors, that's why it's important for you to stop isolating and search for a club/group to join. Your feeling of loneliness won't last long, just be yourself, keep your head up, choose your friends carefully and things will start dropping in place for you. Please don't allow yourself to be bullied, get this sorted out. Don't forget to do a search on what's going on locally, who knows who you may meet!
Please let me know how you are getting on ♥♥♥
DawnDedee lorraine52317
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My granddaughter was severely bullied at school, including bodily injury. The authorities had no way of proving the clever underhanded methods the bullies used, so I could not take action against them. The school hallway cameras were not working and neither were the cameras on the school bus! What is the use of having cameras if they are not going to work?
Her grades went down to failing and her anxiety level was so high that there was no way she could learn anything anyway. So I pulled her out and home schooled her for a year, with the sole purpose in mind of lowering her anxiety level and keeping her safe. Now i found a high school where she has settled in nicely and I am so relieved.
My school of thought about bullies is that you beat the crap out of them once and they will never bother you again. But in this day and age, our society will not allow someone to stand up for themselves in that way. The victim ends up being punished if they stand up for themselves. It is sad.
Saki44 jared72843
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Sorry life is so tough on you right now. Bullies are cruel and cause a lot of pain to innocent victims like yourself. But don't let the garbage the bullies spiel bring you down. Because they are just words coming from morons with dull lifes, most likely they are abused at home. Your a person and you deserve to be happy. Stand tall and be proud. Because you have 100% control on how you talk to yourself. But zero control what others say. You say you have no friends, but you need to be a friend to yourself first. You have to live with yourselself 24/7 365 days a year, so you might as well make it a pleasent one. What are your interest? Do you have any hobbies? If not get some and join a group. You'll make friends in no time. Best of luck
DawnDedee jared72843
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To better understand, I would like to know how old you are.
Hugs
Dawn, USA
Ahsoka23 jared72843
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