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Basically posting here as a sounding barrier before I make a doctor's app.
I've been struggling for a while now with generally just feeling low. I can't sleep, i either eat all the time or don't at all. I have no interest in things that I used to love and I feel like i cant remember the last time i laughed. I could be in a room with lots of my closest friends yet feel like i'm alone and couldn't be more distant to them.
A lot has changed these past 6 months and I have a brother who has been suffering from depression. I think this is why i struggle to admit I have it too. He has been quite bad lately and I'm always the one he speaks to but I feel like it's becoming a bit much.
I feel like I could either explode with emotion: anger/upset/frustration/guilt or I am completely numb and feel nothing. Its like a switch and i've yet to pin-point what causes it.
I haven't spoke to anyone with regards to this yet because I'm just coming to terms with the fact this might be whats wrong. I feel like I haven't been myself the last 6 months at least and I'm a shadow of the person I used to be. I feel like when I'm smiling and 'having a laugh' that people can see its just put on. But the problem is that they don't see it's just put on, so it's easy for me to carry on like everything is fine when in fact it really isn't. Some days I can't face getting out of bed so I just go through the motions of the day. I dont feel much but struggle to make decisions.
Just looking for some advice and a bit of knoweledge knowing I'm not the only person that feels this way.
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