Being Alone....
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I think the hardest thing about having a truly debilitating mental health issue is just being alone.
I understand I could go out and hook up with someone regardless of feeling like a complete liability, but I just can't do that. I'm 38 and still can't even get a date, not even a message back for that matter....
So is this it I wonder, I'm gonna be loveless the rest of my life. That's just the harsh reality of it. I'm almost 40, not in the greatest shape, broke, mentally unstable, and not attractive by traditional standards, and short. You think it's hard being a woman in a man's world, try being a short man in a man's world.
All I ever hear is "Oh, someone will come along." or "Just stay positive." But I've been doing that all my life? Doing the best I can, struggling every minute of everyday to be a good person and, nothing....
"Sorry, you're not my type." I would be a millionaire if I had a penny for every time I've heard this. And then I'm just supposed to act like it doesn't bother me, just being rejected ALL the time. Guess I'm nobody's type. Coming to terms with that is really hard.
So, I've decided not to try anymore. But then I'm here looking at people in the world, on Facebook, it almost seems like everyone has someone but me....😞
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RydiaMoone Leadfrost
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Hi there. I am sorry that you are going through this. I no exactly what its like to be alone. I have no one. No family want to know me and I have no friends. I sit on my lounge all day and stare at the computer screen. Its so hard suffering from depression and anxiety and having no support. I am suicidal most days now and I dont know how I can go on in this world anymore. I feel so lost so empty and unloved. There is nothing wrong with shorter guys. I prefer them but no one wants me im too ugly and to old and to messed up. Cant even make friends cause no one understands. 😦. No not everyone has someone. There are a lot of people out there who have no one I just never thought I would be one of them. I am so sad all day every day and struggle to find a reason to go on. Oh and by the way youre not ugly. I just wanted to message and let you know youre not alone. Take care.
patient_mod2 RydiaMoone
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Hi RydiaMoone
We note from a recent post which you have made to our forum that you may be experiencing thoughts around self-harm. If we have misinterpreted your comments then we apologise for contacting you directly. But if you are having such thoughts then please note that you are not alone in this, and there are people out there that can help.
If you are having these suicidal thoughts then we strongly recommend you speak to someone who may be able to help. The Samaritans offer a safe space where you can talk openly about what you are going through. They can help you explore your options, understand your problems better, or just be there to listen.
Their contact details are on our patient information leaflet here: https://patient.info/health/dealing-with-suicidal-thoughts, which also offers lots of other advice on how you can access the help you may need.
If you are having such thoughts then please do reach out to the team at the Samaritans (or the other people detailed in our leaflet) who will understand what you're going through and will be able to help.
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Leadfrost RydiaMoone
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I hate that you're feeling exactly the way I am. I wouldn't wish it on anyone. And if you need to, you can reach out to me if you're feeling suicidal. That's not the answer. I'll be more than happy to listen and be your friend.🙂
RydiaMoone Leadfrost
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Thank you I would like that. You can send me a private message if you like.