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I would like to ask you how you came over and finish your depression? I am being attacked by the black dog of depression since December, 2012.
I was living the great life but I don't know from where a black storm came and destroyed my whole life as my girl friend met with a car accident and that accident get finished with her life (May her soul Rest In Peace) at that time I was giving the final examinations of my army training. I got good grades but get failed in psychological test as It was the last wish of my GF to see me in the uniform. I knew I was not in the condition to pass my psychological test because of my girl friend but I was trying to complete her last wish.
Since 2012, there is not any single day on which I don't cry or thinking to attempt suicide. Psychologist gave me a suggestion to re appear in my mental health test but I did not. Every thing was finished, my gf, my dreams and her dreams. In the real words I love her. I will love her till the natural end of my life. I promised her to not to leave her for ever that is why I do not have any kind of relationship and I will not have any. I also don't have any friend neither I need any friend. I had tons of friends but I left them all after this because I wanted and want to live alone.
My best friend came from the different state, I gave him shelter but in the starting of 2013, he stole my money, my mobile, my debit card and my cheque book, it was not even singed while I was taking shower and he flew back. I don't know where he is now.
Now after the years full of depression, I want to move on and start my new life. Neither with any girl nor with any friend but just alone. as I feel good when I am alone.
Last week I met with my father, I borrow some three zeros US dollars to go to different country and to start my new life because I feel very uncomfortable here in my homeland. I don't go outside and when I go then I feel that every eye is seeing me from the different point of view I know this is some sort of pessimistic thinking but It is what it is.
I wrote to 100s of lawyers and 100s of people there (where I want to go to start my new life, business/job purpose) but still not any good responses as It is also a cause of depression.
One again I would like to ask you the same question as I asked you earlier "How you came over and trying to come over and finish your depression?"
Would it work for me to go to new place? Will it help me to come over with my depression?
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