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Bipolar 1 and struggling

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Sully99
Sully99

Hi everyone. My first discussion started! I was diagnosed with BP 1 March 15 and have been struggling to get stable since. I was OK for about 5 months from December 15 to April this year. That was on 100mg Quetiapine. I went down to 75mg as I was feeling 'OK' but then crashed about 2 weeks later. Since 17th May I have lost all interest in life, can't / don't want to take my son, eating for Scotland (crisps, sweets etc.) at all funny times, sleeping between 12-14 hours a day, like, right through. I am in Scotland and it is very difficult to get an NHS phsychiatrist. I was so deperate I went to the Accident and emergency unit begging for an appointment. Saw a night doctor and he put me up to 150mg Quetiapine a month ago but doesn't seem to have done anything with my mood. I have pretty bad money problems too and can't handle looking at any of it. I don't want to speak to or contact my friends and then think I have not one friend in the world and no one cares if I live or die. Is this normal for BP depression? Anyone else feel like this. I have no life and it seems like I never will. cry

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  • sharon12462
    sharon12462 Sully99

    Posted

    Hi sully.. I'm pretty much goin through the same diagnosed about 3yrs ago. I started off on sirtraline & quitiapine. .. I found pretty good bt the weight gain made me go down hill again.. I was then put on lithium a more expensive drug so hardly ever offered it .. sirtraline was rubbish ..was put on mirtazapine felt absolutely amazing for 3weeks. .then I went so low from all the side effects.. I changed to venlafaxine in march & I feel so like you. It's like the feel good has happened n that's it there's no getting back there.. our system is much like yours in England. If u nd immediate help you have to go the walk in. Or its at least a 12 week wait for an appointment. . I feel the mental health system fails us all even when we're receiving help from pdr .. Iv been going for 3yrs now ..& because there's no money they give us sh*t meds .. they have no compassion .. up the dose & good bye.. Iv been crying my eyes out wanting to die .. all Theyv doni up or change your meds & turn there back waiting for u to leave.have you be referred to a pdr now you went to hosp??

  • mjmental
    mjmental Sully99

    Posted

    I am sorry that you are having a tough time. I went through a lot of craziness before I was finally diagnosed with bipolar disorder. I take lithium for bipolar and antidepressants for my depression. I take venlafaxine and Buproprion for depression. If I run out of venlafaxine I fall in to the depression. Just hold on as you get your meds straightened out.
    • Sully99
      Sully99 mjmental

      Posted

      Hi smile Are you OK now then, I mean not depressed or manic and if so for how long? It''s what I am doing. Kinda the only thing to do! Hanging or holding on seems to have taken up a large chunk of my life in the last few years. Thanks for the reply.

  • Myrddin69
    Myrddin69 Sully99

    Posted

    Sully you may need to look at Lithium as a long term solution to your condition.  Switch from Quitiepine under supervision of a good doctor.  Your problems require to be addressed.  Talk with friends, and find a solution to your financial woes.  There are many organisations that will help like the CAB and similar.  Sort your problems with help by being open. 
    • woe45
      woe45 Myrddin69

      Posted

      Hi there. It sounds all too familiar Sully. It sounds like you need a Medication review is there a Mental Health Team in your area? The lows are the worst for me also. There are charities offering debt help or even Debt Relief Orders. But I know the low motivation gets you stuck in this rut. Dont lose hope we are here to support one another 😊
  • maggs1960
    maggs1960 Sully99

    Posted

    I am your double you sound so like me ....although i,m upped to 500mg quitiapine....500mg carbimazipine... 2mg Diazepam as and when required diagnosed 2009...from mental breakdown in 2006 ...........i have a CPN FORTNIGHTLY on going since 2009...i now have a occupational therapist also as not coping with the Low mood and disorganisation of my life ..........stress to low low to stress no mania .....sleep is great love it hate the getting up ...best part of day is going to bed ............2009 is a long time ..........what do i do next ....just suffer on a daily basis .............this won,t help you ..i honestly don,t have the answers but you,re not alone ......MIND GAMES are awful ... the hardest thing in the world is to fight your mind ....
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