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to start off my now ex bf has been seeing a therapist because earlier in the relationship I told him he should cause I know something was wrong I even was the one to say that he might have bipolar disorder and come to find out he did and that was about a year ago so recently about two weeks ago we got into a fight he was having a mental breakdown over text message and I tried to understand and say what I think he wants/needs to hear he then got mad at me because I wasn’t answering the right way anymore then stopped replying and two hours later said that we need to talk and I was so taken back by this he said I don’t care about what he was talking about because of how I was answering but I genuinely do so I met up him to talk about what he needed to talk about we decided to take a break just for two weeks while he goes to an outpatient program and gets on medicine (he’s really trying) we decided on the break but he still wanted to hangout that night so we did,everything was normal even great but then two days later he texted me saying he needed to talk to me so we met up again which he said that he wanted to now breakup because he went to the psychiatrist that morning and decided that he was a lot worse then he thought and two weeks wasn’t gonna do which is fine I wasn’t fine with the breakup because I thought as a couple we should work on it together like we have been but also can’t tell him to not go work on himself when all he wants is to be happy with himself all up to this point he kept saying he loved me he wants a future with me and he’s doing this for him but also for us cause he sees a future in me he/we even talked about marriage and how we had an amazing connection almost like soulmates he was/is? so in love with me. But he wanted to be alone he didnt want to be half in the relationship cause i deserved sm more so I let him there was times where I texted him cause I need reassurance about us and how he felt about me so I didn’t exactly have the best time leaving him alone but I did back off and then about a week ago I texted him because between that week we decided we could do check ups and I wanted to check up on him after his outpatient program and he told me he was having a rough day but I did unfortunately give him an attitude about texting me because I thought that’s what we were doing we then got into another fight him saying how he can’t trust me with his feelings because how I give him an attitude and have said mean things to him (nothing terrible...I fully regret and have apologized for) he just wanted me to show him I was changing working on that and I fully understand I shouldn’t say things to hurt him or give him an attitude in his weakest points then the day after we met up again basically just deciding we need to not talk because we both have heightened emotions do to the break which is totally understandable and how his “heart” is telling him to be alone right now cause he just wants to get better but still says that wants to be with me so we decided on that but we still established we wanted a future together and that eventually we will get back together no matter how long it takes because we are meant to be together but he also says that he doesn’t know what the future holds but he is hopeful that we will get back together/belong together I then left him alone for some odd days I think about 5 and we talked he was completely fine perfect even telling me how it’s great to have reassurance I don’t hate him and I still do love him and want to be with him even saying when he gets to where he wants I’ll be the first to know and we will be back together and then he texted me the next day saying he wants this to be a break up (like we decided on) I know it’s my fault breaking what he wants with texting him sm and asking the same questions for reassurance it definitely got annoying I just was so overwhelmed with the constant change of what will happen like between a future and no future he basically said the we shouldn’t be hopeful for it we need to cut all ties and saying he needs to let me go no more false hope and then I call him cause he literally flip flopped in between yesterday and today and he said he fell out of love with me he still loves me as a person but not in love with me anymore and this started a couple months ago which makes no sense to anyone I’ve told cause we were perfect up until a couple weeks ago I asked him about that and he just apologized for leading me on and not being honest with me with his impending feelings and holding on to what we have left and not how he didn’t know if it was a mental low or truly felt that way and he decided it wasn’t a mental low and that’s how he felt but then he discreetly agrees to maybe us getting back together (saying he won’t allow his brain to think this way but doesn’t tell me no when I said who knows what will happen in the future) after some time has past to let this whole breakup settle even agrees to after a while being friends is 100% possible he just needs his space which now I will give him and not text him so often annoying him with the same questions.... I just want to know is this relationship I total loss or is there a possible hope that he will come back and we can start a new relationship as better people with some space and working on what we want to it just seems that he doesn’t want to let me go but has to right not he doesnt want any other girl not looking for any relationship just wants to be alone i just dont know what to think about if we do/dont have a future ( sorry this is so long just didnt want to leave anything out)
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