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Bipolar relapse and feeling pretty awful

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Bipolarme
Bipolarme

I've been symptom free and medication free for almost 2 years and my life was going really well and then it all started to fall apart. This depression has hit me so hard that I'm barely able to function, I've completely lost interest in everything, I'm edgy and tearful and unable to do my job, mostly because I no longer seem to care . I don't want to go back on medication but I have had enough of feeling like this. I want my life back!

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  • MoreThanDSM5
    MoreThanDSM5 Bipolarme

    Posted

    Finding strength and resolve when you are sliding down a path once trod is very difficult indeed. Having been in a similar situation I know that right now you must be dreading the past returning. Though I do not know you, the fact that you managed to go two years shows me that you are not a person who gives up. Though all around you may seem dark, you found a way to balance your life once before, the fact that you have recognised your situation for what it is, shows that you are one step on the right road. What inner strength you have I do not know, and whilst medication is one answer, knowing you can do it without should be a stronger incentive. I do not wish this to sound like a motivational speech, rather I hope it lets you know that you have support, even though it comes from a stranger. Stay strong, be honest with yourself, and find that anchor to ground yourself whilst you rebuild, you are not alone, we walk together and help each other when we stumble

    Regards

    David

    • mauiblue
      mauiblue MoreThanDSM5

      Posted

      Beautifully supported.

      I just wanted to comment on someone who is suffering with 'who knows what', but depression for sure.

      ?I hope you find yourself hatt back to that place. Youve done it once for a long period of time, you can do it again.

      xox

    • Bipolarme
      Bipolarme MoreThanDSM5

      Posted

      Thank you for your reply. It does scare me that the past is returning as I went through absolute hell with very little support and do not wish to relive that. Having really thought about it today I have come to realise that I decided to get away from the toxic medications for a very good reason and although I'm struggling at the moment I know I can come out the other end of this without the help of mind altering drugs. 

    • MoreThanDSM5
      MoreThanDSM5 Bipolarme

      Posted

      Hatt 

      If there is anything I can do to help support you please feel free to contact me. Nobody should face a struggle alone and even support from strangers can be a positive boost.

      Stay strong

      Regards

      David

    • Bipolarme
      Bipolarme MoreThanDSM5

      Posted

      Hi david

      thank you for your support it's nice to know I have people to talk to.  times are hard at the moment but I'm finding ways to keep myself stable and working towards getting professional help.

       

  • borderriever
    borderriever Bipolarme

    Posted

    Hatt

    First I would advise you go and make an appointment with your GP, you need to talk and explain if you know, why you have back peddles with your illness.

    Consider this  You have been medication free for two years now and since then you have not needed any real support. Your GP will know that and will treat accordingly, it may be you will need medications over a short period of time and you will revert back to normality over a given period of time. So it is important you are seem sooner rather than later and this will put you in a better place to recover and come of the medications that much earlier.

    Do you know the reason for your backslide, if you do look upon a way to sort your problems and then that will also help you to address your concerns

    If you need to chat we are here

    BOB

    • Bipolarme
      Bipolarme borderriever

      Posted

      Thanks for your reply and support. Unfortunately the doctors surgery where I live is as much good as a chocolate tea pot so I'm in the process of finding a new GP. This time round there doesn't seem to be a reason for my relapse, it's just not been a great year and I slipped down the rabbit hole pretty hard and fast. The only way of sorting through my problems this time is with the help of a psychological professional and a lot of therapy. 

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