Blackout and lost
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I did so well and didn't drink for 8 months. Then had a set back and started again. Went to meet new people yesterday, joined a group to meet new friends and the idiot I am decided to drink. Low and behold I don't remember leaving the pub and must have started sobering up when I then realised I was in a random area. I must have got on wrong bus but no idea how I got there. I was so excited to meet new people and got left with a few younger people at the end apparently but all a blank from there on. So so frightened and feel lowest of the low right now. And to think I had left my poor dogs on their own while I was off drunkenly wandering the streets 😔
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Smile47824 emma84640
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Hi Emma,
First, congratulations on the 8 months. That must have felt really good. So you messed up and that sucks and sounds frightening. Get back up and learn from this.
I am 6 months sober now and I just want to tell you that I'm proud of you and that you can keep going in the right direction.
emma84640 Smile47824
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Thank you so much. Berating myself so badly right now. Why we do it to ourselves when we know what will happen every time. Well done on your 6 months. I was ok until my sister told me pregnant again. Was one more reminder that I have very little happiness in my life. Drank on and off since. Need to get back on track x
sheryl96253 emma84640
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Emma, we're human and we screw up all the time. I'm so grateful you didn't get into serious trouble. I so admire people who can be sober without help. If you read about the Sinclair Method you might that this one pill could have a lasting, positive impact on your sobriety. There is a thread on this sight, but also so much info on internet. It has an 80% success rate for drinking less and less over a number of months. My best to you.
sheryl96253
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emma84640 sheryl96253
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I guess I have a lot of jealousy issues re my sister. My dad died when I was a baby and my mom remarried when I was 6 and had my brother and sister. My mom and sister have an amazing relationship but me and Mom clash. And my sisters life just gets better and better and I feel she gets everything that is good and me, I get all that is bad. 😔 Not good for me to feel this way, huh x
emma84640 sheryl96253
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I tried nalmefene and it made me so ill. I found easiest way was to not drink at all. Hardest part though was going out with people from work and the questions on why aren't you drinking etc.
sheryl96253 emma84640
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Everybody's relationships are different and envy and anger or regret only hurt you more. You are on a different journey than your sister and you'll need to find your own joy and contentment. I'm sorry naltrexone didn't work for you, maybe there is a med that works the same way but won't make you sick. We fall down seven times and get back up eight! Never give up. I've told my friends alcohol just isn't working for me anymore and not worth the hangover. Take care of yourself, you deserve a life without this evil monkey on your back.
Robin2015 emma84640
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Fully agree with the others. Do not blame yourself. You can remain sober from tomorrow Monday 😁
emma84640 Robin2015
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rainbow2014 emma84640
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Hello Emma
?Like everyone else has said , please do not beat yourself up about this . 8 months is fantastic . Blackouts are awful because of the unknown , but I always think , the people that understand and care are the ones you only need to think about if you are worried about what you may have done , if anything .
I did the same a couple of nights ago in a busy pub in front of all my family . I went three days sober last week and it was wonderful , spending time with my daughter, laughing and being alert watching tele, having nice food . Then , oh lets down a bottle of wine before going out . Hey , it won't happen again !!! Who are we kidding ?
?I'm telling myself once more.....I am enough
next time I won't do that and I've brushed myself down .
If I were you I would join another group straight away. It's quite interesting watching others as most of us feel anxious and just want to make friends .
Good luck x
emma84640 rainbow2014
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Thank you ?? Feeling bit low and full of regret but this needs to be day one to stop drinking again. It's mad how it has such a hold on us and we know the outcome every time we give into the first drink. Life is so much better without it x
rainbow2014 emma84640
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You are on the right track Emma , just don't think about that night
I'm not thinking of mine . Chin up hey and know that there are loads of us out there with you , and most won't admit it . You are doing great 
Take care and have a good eve x