Blahhhh when will this end

I can understand how u feel. Anxiety and OCD are terrible on their own, but when they happen together then health anxiety is just around the corner. I feel for u,I know how terrible it becomes and how scared we are of becoming seriously I'll. But anxiety can and does cause so many physical problems, then the ocd drives it to obsession. All I would say is to get into therapy if you aren't already, medication really isn't a long term solution - I never touch it, just therapy. CBT isn't really going to be enough but if you speak to your doctor about a referral to psychology they should offer something to help. I hope you get relief soon, its a really long road I know

Sarah I am so sorry about all your miscarriages.  That is enough to make any woman "down".  That is such a lovely photo of your wedding.  I admire that you cope so well when inside the anxiety is so bad.  Yes nobody else can see the turmoil inside of us.  Let us know how you get on at the meeting (you don't say what that is ), and I do hope it helps.  Perhaps you could pass on the advice you get.  

It is a difficult illness, and like you say other people cannot see how we struggle daily.  

Take care and keep in touch