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I've been going through something ridiculous for 5 years, here's something I typed a few years ago when I was venting:
July of 2011 I woke up with “a blank mind” OVERNIGHT
Awful Brain Fog and blankness that impacted my sleep and memory. I can best describe it as having your head empty with pressure all the time with horrible memory and no energy, lack of feeling emotions.
Memory was, and still is, impaired from what it was before July of 2011. Short-term is terrible, long-term is a little better than short-term, but still terrible. I don't experience headaches since it happened.
Sometimes get muscle twitches (left eye, legs, sometimes arms)
(If I run a hot shower and put the stream exactly in the middle of my head, it slightly feels less “foggy”).
Emotions dulled. Can't feel the full feeling of happiness or love. Over time, I felt anger and sadness more than positive feelings. Imagination is also impaired because I can't longer.of visual images well.
Sleep is severely impaired.
Can't sleep at all without medication, due to racing thoughts, songs, and voices playing in my head that start to happen before I sleep.
(Earlier my legs would always be restless).
I was prescribed Seroquel because it shuts those thoughts down, which allows me to sleep. Sleep still doesn't feel as restful as it was, before July of 2011.
If I choose to sleep without medication, I won't fall asleep until it's past 4:00 AM. I'll wake up 3 or 4 hours later feeling highly alert.
Everyday at some point, I sweat excessively through my hands and feet.
(I was prescribed Klonopin to help with Anxiety)
Feels like I've lost my personality
loss of internal monologue
can barely remember what I was like back then in 2011
drugs taken over the course of having a blank mind
Surprisingly weed did lift it once.
nothing has changed besides me sleeping at night with medication. I've also been diagnosed with MILD obstructive sleep apnea. I'm pretty close to giving up because I can't live like this much longer.
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