body is on edge

I have dealt with GAD for 10 years now (im 22). It started off in a physical manner and has only ever haunted me physically. Sometimes Id prefer my anxiety to only be mental and not manifest itself physically because it makes me feel like im dying. Every-time i am in a space of stress or something new happens , something im not used to: my body shuts down and its on panic mode 24/7. I'm not sure what it was exactly but i had to cover a shift at my job on sunday at which i had a panic attack and ever since then, my anxiety has been at an all time high. Ive tried every coping strategy and it goes away for a bit but comes back later and the next day. my heart races everyday randomly it beats hard and i get scared. Ive felt that before and i know my heart is healthy but it still freaks me out. I told my mom i was so over this feeling. That i hate being alive but not feeling alive. I cant do anything without panicking. I ruined the universal studios trip because my heart was racing the whole time and i felt like something would happen to me. I get nervous over the smallest of things. Does this ever go away?????

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