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Ok, feeling out of control this weekend. Blamed it on citalopram and havent taken it for 2 nights.
Ive been doing a lot of reading ( perhaps a bad idea) into the above. Now, I know that I dont like pigeon-holing etc-but I answered all 9 questions in this diagnostoc test thing, to a \"Yes\". The one major symptom which I have is the empty/bored feeling, The intense anger, irritability, and the odd urges to make myself feel alive. Substance abuse, the good and the bad. Maybe as i am older now there are less baddies than goodies-buts that true to say, as a simpleton, this all seems to fit. The low self esteem, feelings of being unworthy ( constantly) and lack of confidence, all my life. One thing though is due to me bouncing from I love them hate them thing...I dont fear abndonment-or maybe I do as rejection is a big thing for me.
When I was in playschool, the nursery nurses rang my mum and said I was socially inept, was finding it difficult to \"fit in\". My parents had to change me, and put me in a nursery. I still didnt seem to \"fit in\"but made friends with the doens syndrme kids as they had innocense and I could trust them.
These days, and by the looks of things , no one seems to be worried about this, I think its all apart of my package. Thiis isnt just anxiety-theres more. Perhaps it all stems from the strange relationship I have with my mum-its a total\"Love hate thing with her\" always has been and even the fact iI striuggle with sentence structure/grammar the whole package fits. Have I gone crazy? No, Ive just been this way all my life. A few yeasrs ago their was no name for this, and perhaps I am just shy. Another thing is I totally get that yearning to be loved thing.
My mum, is like me, my youngest is like me and we both have the same toe disformation. I am no Brainiac or medical student ( thank goodness I hear you all cry) but I think there must be a link somesort of genetic thing there. I also totally understand my daughters behaviour sometimes.That has made me feel les alone.
But am I right about this-or gone of the mountain?
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