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I was diagnosed with BPD 6 months ago. Therapy has helped a lot, but now I feel like it takes the smallest thing to set me off.
No one understands and I try to explain why I over think, get upset over silly things. I go into 'a zone' where everything seems much worse than it is, what could be the simplest thing like a friend not answering the phone or my boyfriend not texting me back because he's busy or whatever sets me into
A - panic mode (something terrible has happened. Car crash for example)
B -Self blame (I've done something, I must have done something to upset them then onto "they're better off without me anyway" "Id be better on my own anyway "
Or C -Can't deal mode (they're idiots!! How dare they!!)
It is crippling, I feel so overwhelmed with emotions and I can't handle it. It makes me feel so lost, depressed and sometimes I think "what is the point"
I feel so lonely and I know my friends/family/boyfriend/colleagues try to understand but they never fully will understand.
Is this normal?? What can I do??
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