Brain tumor anxiety. Feel like I'm losing my mind.
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hello everyone, so I'm not sure how to say all if this clearly without sounding crazy. but ill try.
for about a month now I've had a very intense fear i have a brain tumor. most of my symptoms can be chalked up to needing glasses or being tired etc. but I've had one symptom that really bothered me. deja vu. i started getting a lot if deja vu when i moved here a month ago. and some days would give me frequent deja vu. and other days would give me none. but the other day i had another deja vu moment and it freaked me out cause whenever I'd think about the memory in question, I'd feel the deja vu all over again. it was almost like i could cause deja vu whenever i wanted. i don't know if this was a dream i had and that's why its sticking with me. and not because its deja vu. and idk if my anxiety over it is making it worse. I've had deja vu before and it doesn't feel like what i experienced the other day. but it sorta did if that makes sense.
i looked up frequent deja vu on google and saw two articles of two different people who had this same symptom and nothing else and had a brain tumor. i asked my doctor for an MRI but she said my symptoms don't warrant one. i did have a ct scan of my head almost two years ago that they said came back clear. so maybe she's right. my health anxiety is telling me to go to an urgent care and have a doctor schedule one for me. but i don't want to have to rely on vetting tests all the time. the past year i was at the er 4 times and im just so tired if all of this.
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atz0000 mark415
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hello mark, i totally understand what you mean. i have a very deep, intense fear of having asthma, and im constantly on edge that I'll have an attack even though I haven't been diagnosed with it. it started back in october 2020 when i suddenly became hyperaware of my breathing, and it has been a downward spiral since then. gotten a billion tests done, even went to my trusted pulmonologist for a lung function test, who told me i dont need one because my lungs sound fine. it's just so terrifying because I have good and bad days, and on bad days i genuinely feel like i can't breathe😢 i dont want to keep going back to my doc because i know he'll say the same thing. even worse, i caught covid back in may, and i convinced myself it damaged my lungs even though it only gave me pharyngitis and i recovered fairly quickly. i try to rationalise that if i had asthma i would've known by now, i would have a cough, more devastating symptoms etc. but my mind simply doesn't listen. im sorry i cant help much, except reassure you that you are not alone. what helps is trying to take things one day at a time.
jan34534 mark415
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Mark I am sorry you are going through this. Please don’t look up things online because they always give The worst case for everything. and it won’t pertain to your individual situation.
I can also tell you that I’ve had anxiety my whole life and I’m Way older than you I’m sure. I had déjà vu more times than I can count with and without any other symptoms or sensations. It is extremely common with anxiety. When you overthink things and get nervous about things you create an underlying anxiety which can cause all sorts of sensations including déjà vu!
don’t believe everything that you read online. Brain tumor has other symptoms besides déjà vu.
your CAT scan was clear. also why did you get the cat skin in the first place?
I agree with your doctor. It really sounds like your Health anxiety has taken over and it’s causing nothing but fear. Fear leads to anxiety and anxiety leads to symptoms and sensations that are not harmful.
your intense fear of brain tumor is raising your anxiety and causing déjà vu. What you need to do is relax your mind as much as you can. Learn some good breathing exercises for anxiety on YouTube. A couple times a day at least you should go in a quiet room and lay down or sit up and breathe! turn on a soothing meditation for relaxation or anxiety. I found that if I didn’t do this I would get worse sensations. anxiety creates negative thoughts in the mind. You have to take control and not the lead around by that and fear. You’re going to be OK. stay busy and active and do things that relax your mind.
mark415 jan34534
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thank you for the in depth reply. it really means so much.
i had the ct scan for a lot of vertigo. so for a while i was getting vertigo on and off. i had ringing in the ears and this weird feeling of brain zaps where my brain would almost feel like it is vibrating. so my vertigo was really bad one day so i said screw it. and went to the er.
its so difficult to trust my doctor. i hate it so much. i want to feel relaxed but my anxiety is so strong whenevr i get these deja vu moments.