Buerger's Disease, my brother has it, in the mo...
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This is a terrible disease, my brother has it, in the most terrible form. he is in constant pain, has had many amputations, and the depression is so severe. 8 YEARS he has lived with this and 27 operations. He is losing the will to live and has lost his independance. I am so lonely as we have lost the relationship that once was, although we dearly love each other. The pain has changed him and the sufferring.
I would like to find/start a support group in south east England/greater London !!!!..Its a cruel disease. Smoking is all he has left, albeit, that's the problem. People do not realise how hard this addiction is. What else has he got? He is isolated, depressed and does not want to go on.
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I had never heard of this disease until I was diagnosed with it 2 years ago. I am a woman and I was a heavy smoker, most info I found on berguers disease said it struck men. If I was as bad as your brother, I would lose the will to live also. Its sad , I guess the pain in my 3 toes is nothing compared to your brother.
God Bless,
Diana
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i gave up smoking straight away when i was admitted to hospital and even now after 5 months i sti;ll crave for a fag but i will never smoke again a ciggarette reminds me of another toe i have all ready had two amputated the cold i feel every day seems to get worse what i would dearly like to find is a forum where buergers sufferers maybe can help one another any takers
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My advise to you is stay busy, take your blood thinners on a regular basis and keep walking. If you don't use those legs, you will most certainly lose them. It's been working for me for 16 years.
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Kind regards T M
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OnionBuerger shan9008
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Yes ...this disease is so misunderstood. Aside from shingles that I contracted at age 14, this disease is by far the most painful I have ever experienced in my life. When your nerves are starving for oxygen, there is absolutely nothing that can stop the pain. It feels like the weight of the entire world is atop your foot or leg. It'sd so horrible! I have had this disease for 16 years but I tell you additude is everthing when you are dealing with it. I try to stay busy and take my meds and it's been manageable. About every 3 years I'll have some more cut off or another bypass but I am still walking with half a foot and only two toes left. I would love to share with you all my erxperiences in dealing with this disease. I had a friend that died from it a few years back by having a stroke and I have another friend who simply could not stand the pain after his bypass and decided to get his leg amputated below the knee. He has turned bitter now and gets envious every time he sees me because I'm still walking. I simply would not give up my leg to any doctor and am adament about that to my grave. Once you get a leg ampuation, your mortality rate falls by 50%. After you lose your legs and arms the disease has no other place to attack except for the liver. That is a horrible way to go and I make damn sure it never happens to me. I'd rather die of a sudden stroke laughing with my friends and family. Nobody wants to waste away and have their soul eaten up by pain and suffering. And for the skeptics out there who don't believe we are suffering that bad, I say screw them!!!! Walk a mile n our shoes and they'd be wasiling like babies starving for some empathy.
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I live in Oklahoma USA but I certainly feel for you and your brother from across the pond. Please reply and lets stay in touch as I have alot to share with you.
Bearkatt OnionBuerger
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Yes....when I first discovered I had this disease in 1998 I was diagnosed at OU Medical Hospital. The head of vascular medicine there by the name of Dr. W. scared the begeebies out of me and told me to quit smoking immediately or I would have my left leg amputated, which I did right away. But what really p*issed my chicken off is after I quit, the b*stard still wanted to amputate anyway! Needless to say, I told him to take a hike because he showed no interest in performing a bypass or anything.
I had quit for 3 years out of fear and the whole time this doctor was practically begging me to let him cut my leg off. I refused. The 3 years of absolutely unbelievable pain I endured changed me forever to the point where I feared nothing at all. When I starting working 60 hours a week as a manager I unfortunately started smoking again. I think when a person decides to quit, it has to be for the right reasons. Fear in my mind is not a lasting motivator at all. Sooner or later it loses it's purpose and we go back. I know it sounds crazy but when you go through agony like that and your idiot doctor still wants to take the conservative approach and hack away, I had nothing left to fear, This doctor was an egotistical, self-centered butcher...plain and simple.
To answer your question.... quitting smoking only slows it down and that's it. I actually contracted this disease by working in environmental cleanup at a refinery doused in noxious chemicals (same chemicals in most cigs). I did meet a man who told me that his sister was a non-smoker and worked as a safety manager in a refinery. A worker fell into a vat of sludge and the safety manager mindless of her welfare jumped in and saved the man. The very sad ending to this story is she was diagnosed with BD and like I said was a no-smoker. After she had her limbs amputated the BD had nowhere else to go except her liver. She passed away within a decade and the company paid off her family with a large sum of money to keep everyone quiet. If you asked me, this woman was a hero. It does not seem fair at all but that's reality. Not unlike asbestos and Mesotheleoma.
Oh....thanks for the comment on my name. Here in Oklahoma, we love onionburgers and it just seemed like the perfect handle. LOL!
OnionBuerger shan9008
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I'm with you 100%. I have been smoking for 14 years with BD. And in the past years off and on I have struggled with alcoholism and drug addiction to cope with the severity of this horrible disesase. I am now a recovering alcoholic/addict and I am just thankful that I can still get up in the morning and walk to the bus stop and go about my day with hope and a smile on my face. I have learned not to be too judgemental on myself and that we are human after all and it works for me at the moment.
What is so heartbreaking about all this is my mother and father will not have anything to do with me because of the fact that I am still "Smoking". In their old age they have become unforgiving, egocentric, self centered and downright hateful towards me and I just don't understand their reasoning at all. Hell.....I learned to smoke from them!!! Now they are hippocrates and act like they never smoked at all!
The point I think they are missing is everyone handles their mortality and deal with it in their unique way. My father's health is not the best.... Diabetes, high blood pressure and colon cancer survivor and his way of dealing with his fear of dying is killing himself runnng a 260 acre farm alone and it's harming his health worse than my smoking. My mother....well she deals with her PAD, dimentia and heart defect by staying holed up in her room surfing the net and stockpiling all the junk food she can hide in her closet. And when they are not harming themselves deliberately, they are treating others with hate and disgust. It makes no sense at all... how in the hell can someone be like that to their own family and look at themselves in the mirror every morning convincing themselves that what their doing is right and find happiness in it???? If I was okay with this behavior, I would beg for someone to shoot me and put me out of my misery.
My objective in life is to learn how to die well without hurting others around me. Everyone wants to be happy in life but not many others really thin k hard on having a good death by treating others with patience, love and tolerance.
I'm sorry .... I just had to get that off my chest because it really gets to me.
Bearkatt OnionBuerger
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Sounds like your condition is more severe than mine....I feel bad for you. You are the first one that says quitting smoking will not make this go away, it just slows the progression down. I have been searching the net for the future prognosis and can't find much anywhere. My doc thinks you just quit smoking, and it may take a little time but it will get completely better. I also get the feeling he thinks I am exaggerating the pain to get pain pills. Really?? He doesn't say so, its just a feeling I get.
So, I quit smoking a year and a half ago and despite the fact the open sores have healed, I feel like my condition is worse with pain creeping going up my legs where before it was confined to my toes and occasionally other parts of my foot.
Well, I am keeping positive about this.. After all just about everyone has issues to deal with, I just want a true picture of what to expect in the future.
Thanks again OnionBuerger.. .still love the name!! Keep in touch.
OnionBuerger Bearkatt
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Bearkatt,
I haven't hear from you in awhile. Are you doing okay? I am but now I'm starting to have seizures.
I hope that you are still hanging in there.
Sincerely, OnionBuerger
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I hope that you are doing well.