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BV going on 9 months - VERY depressed (post 2)

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abby95012
abby95012

This site has been a god sent. To see that I am not alone is very comforting but worrying at the same time. I feel for so many women - I have only had this for 9 months but to see the women that have dealt with it 10 years+ .... that's why I am making a second post. I've been on this site in this group day and night for some time now. Reading all these contradicting opinions and treatments about BV is making my head spin. Yes different things work for different women but we do not all have the wallet to try all these different things. A little about my story:

I developed BV in December or January of 2018. At first it was a NIGHTMARE (still is but was way worse then) I was terribly raw, itching like crazy, had pain inserting tampons, had sharp shooting pains and just crazy pain and itching. Working was an absolute nightmare, wearing pants felt as if I was wearing a diaper. I dreaded putting on any kind of bottoms. Being in the shower didn't help the odor or the fact that it felt like I had something in me at all times in fact being in the shower made that feeling 10x worse. I am only 19 and constantly am thinking about this. It has ruined my dating life and my day-to-day life. I barely get out of bed and have had suicidal thoughts over it. This may as well be a disease because it sure feels like one. The pain would come and go for sometime but one day in Feb/March it became consistent every day and now July 2018 I have had this every single day. At first BV test came back negative. I stopped using soap down there and only use summers eve or warm wash cloth. Went on probiotics for month - helped but didn't clear it. Finally went to my gyn after yellow discharge EVERYDAY I seriously have to wear a panti liner everyday in order to be able to wear bottoms and just function and walk around. Otherwise it is very uncomfortable. Still is uncomfortable just less. My gyn gave me metronidazole gel and clindamycin cream suppositories. Both of which helped but 2 months later the infection is still very much present. Still have loads of discharge and odor and yellowish discharge I can see on panti liner and the worst part - the constant feeling of something being in there. That's the first thing I think when I wake up in the morning ... how does my BV feel. Sad right? I often wonder if I will ever get back to a normal life and a normal dating life. I cry because I want to be a mother and I can only wonder the damage this has caused. I was prescribed the oral flagyl initially but never took it because I read how sick it makes you and how it doesn't really work I was also prescribed diflucan twice and that did help a lot but also didn't clear it because it is not a yeast infection. Like I said in my first post - I am discouraged by all the contradicting opinions. I've only been lucky to have this go away for only one day. The next day it came right back. I've never felt more defeated and frustrated. Thank you in advance for any/all comments or suggestions. Also have heard good things about isla soap stick... how has that worked for anyone? Hesitant on spending that much money but am willing if it really works...

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  • misty3461
    misty3461 abby95012

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    I just want to my gyno complaining of an odor and discharge. She was sending me for a pelvic ultrasound because she said it could be polyps. In the meantime, my culture came back positive for yeast and bv. I’m on the metronidazole gel treatment right now. Anyway, maybe you should suggest to you gyno to order an ultrasound to make sure there isn’t anything else going on. 
  • sydney07157
    sydney07157 abby95012

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    Hey Abby it makes me so sad reading this... I had bv for four years. It is absolutely horrible! I gained a bunch of weight because like you I never wanted to get out of my bed or be around people because, I would get anxiety and wonder if they could smell me. I had many suicidal thoughts, this literally does ruin your life I know that first hand. The only that has helped me is a product on amazon called balance complex. It has thousands of good reviews from women with chronic bv, and how it keeps them in balance. It took awhile for it to work for me so if you get it be patient! But it’s helped keep the small and discharge away. I take it everyday though. I have gone a couple of days without taking it and nothing came back. But I’m to worried to stop taking it. Fortunately the pharmaceutical companies are realizing that this is an actual problem. By 2023 they’re putting out many new antibiotics that are focused on chronic bv! So that gives me hope that they’re finally doing something about it. Hang in there I know it’s so hard to live everyday believe me! But hope, faith, friends, family, and my boyfriend got me threw those horrible four years. Keep hope okay? 

    • abby95012
      abby95012 sydney07157

      Posted

      Thank you so much Sydney. You are very sweet and I very much appreciate your words of encouragement!!!
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