Can anxiety lead to depression?!
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I'll try not to ramble on but I need some advice so Im just going to explain what I can, if you dont know ive had anxiety for a while now and Im 19 years old and i feel i'm becoming depressed, things like death terrify me to the point I feel sick. I found out this woman near me committed sucuide in a hotel room literally 5 minutes from me and its really scared me like what if i get to that point? I really dont want too. I don't want to feel like this forever. I feel like im craving my boyfriends attention and affection also sometimes and I feel like I can be lonely when Im in the same room as him, like he just doesn't understand or care anymore. I don't want to leave him and become more depressed or it could make me better? Its such a hard decision, I do love him but I need to love myself more and I know that. I feel like all this over thinking is going to make me crazy and depressed. I've started to stay at home 2 nights a week now going to see if that'll help but so far it doesnt. I know thousands of people feel the way I do but I cant help but think im the only one sometimes! Does this make sense? I get terrified that i'm going to have a freak out and go crazy and it really scares me which causes my anxiety. I have solutions for when Im feeling anxious and what not such as watching netflix and relaxing but thats a short term solution. I don't want to be older and be depressed or go crazy. Can someone just give me some reassurance of any advice if you have ever felt the same?
I would really appreicate it. xx
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Yes. exactly the same I believe at your age. I am now twice that - 38. Neither too crazy nor dead . You will feel better. Perhaps some therapy or counselling to help ease you through this. You are still evolving and i tend to believe that depression and anxiety serve to guide us to a better place inside. You will get to know yourself better through this experience and learn how to comfort yourself and how to keep growing. As for the fear of death, it is the uncertain times we live in. Feels like danger is all around us. Either from outside, or internally in terms of disease etc. You are not designed to be ok with death at this age Death becomes suprisingly easier to stomach as you get older. Once you get quite near it no longer looks so terrifying and i know this from watching loved ones pass. Your fear of death now is a sign that there is a lot of stuff you still want to experience. Your ambiguous feelings about your relationship point in the same direction. Perhaps you just need to go out, meet people from all walks of life, explore your place in the world, figure out who you are and where you would like to be. Anxiety and depression often need to be treated. Because they are so all-consuming and so exhausting. But you do not go crazy from it. You were a little affected by the closeness of the person in that hotel room who comitted suicide. If it is any comfort...people afraid of death and losing control as you are do not tend to get suicidal . So just explain to yourself in the mirror that this is not what you need to worry about. My heartfelt advice. I went into therapy, first counselling and then medication. I am done with and grateful for both. Consider it as an option if you feel overwhelmed by this. It will get better. All the best.