Can anyone explain this new set of nightmares/flashbacks?

Hi John, I contacted my counsellor in the end and they talked me through it, I wrote it down then used a grounding technique that helped me a lot

I just feel really embarrassed about the whole thing now and will discuss it with my counsellor next week. Thanks my husband knows too.

Sam Their is no need to feel embarrassed for without communication with the wide world we don't realize that the world has so many people suffering.

You decide when to talk,it's your choice so take your time, having an understanding husband is a bonus.

God bless

John

Hi John, thank you for being so kind it's true without communication we wouldn't find out anything. I'll keep explaining as that's what helps me the most.

Hi Sam, I find that sleeping helps to unwind, that's all iv'e done to day. Too much confusion in my mind leaves me helpless and so i sleep, would you like to tell me what you do, it maybe something i haven't tried yet.

Peace to you.

John

Hi John, the problem I seem to have is the more ill I become the more depressed I then get really fed up. I sleep tonnes when I'm ill and I've now had enough being ill. Hopefully it will get better but it doesn't seem to. I wish I could work all day never mind sleep.

Hi Sam, What about trying a hobby something that you have thought about but have never done. Something to give you a challenge, even if it doesn't work the first time push yourself. I found that when i was at school i was good at drawing but as i got older the drawing left me other ideas came into my head, so i tried to draw again expecting great results' i couldn't believe the rubbish i put down' every time i tried i would end up tearing up the picture because i felt that it was a mess, after a few months i started to see that my pictures were all full of anger and i realized without thinking about it i found away to express my feelings. That then led me to write down what stupid dreams i was having, i continue to draw and now i try my hand at Watercolour,Pastels, Acrylics and anything that takes me out of my comfort zone.

We need to find an alternative way forward instead of the easy way in life, when i challenge myself to do something i'm not thinking of past thoughts, i'm thinking only in the moment pushing myself giving myself a break of negative feelings bringing positive feelings to the front helping me to feel better with my self.

You have to learn to love yourself again it's part of the process of being the real you. Fight these feelings Sam find something to change the pattern of your life and you will surprise yourself.

God bless 

John

Hi John it's amazing how many people are visual thinkers and learners, but I am not one of them. I am an auditory learner with no artistic bone in my body. I am an absolute amateur musician who learnt up to grade 5 on the piano, I'd a new piano-type keyboard that works! Wish me luck getting one of those I might have time to do something for me then, that's what I miss.

Yes Sam good luck, i think you will surprise your self, we all have hidden talents finding yours will be a good challenge for you. My mother tried to get me into singing when i was a child but with no luck i was just a normal    misbehaved boy, but i loved hearing my mother sing, she sang to the troops in 1946 and was good at it, i do miss her.

Anyway i cannot sing but i love music so let me know how you get on God bless

John

Hi John, I will find a way to do things I am sure. I am not dead yet! I still have some contact with my church and sometimes find they give me great solace.

Hi Sam Sorry i didn't reply this morning but iv'e been a bit tired, i'll talk again soon 

God bless John

Hi John same here what made you tired?

Hi John, sorry I didn't respond after finally seeing my counsellor yesterday but crashed out as per usual! I can't fault my counsellor she was so supportive, she's going to really help me to with these flashbacks so I can get some long needed proper rest. I am quite pleased, but I hope it works.