Can anyone help? Or at least understand?
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Hello Everyone,
So for the last three months I have completely lost who I am. I don't like going out or leaving the house. I just like sitting on the sofa under a blanket. Even getting up to the toilet makes me worry. I force myself out of the house to my families, shop, out for dinner- but I don't enjoy it at all and am just counting the minutes until I am back home on the sofa. I am not working at the moment and have been signed off- as I am really struggling driving on my own.
I am convinced there is something wrong with me and am convinced I am not well and not able to complete simple tasks.
- I feel dizzy/lightheaded/ weak throughout the day.
- constant left eye twitching
- sensitivity to light, see stars and glare of lights. Struggle looking at certain patterns.
- chest pains and real discomfort in the middle.
- feel like I can't always breathe properly
- constant phlegm in throat and having to constantly swallow, clear throat, gagging daily on what's in my throat, horrible taste in mouth all the time, teeth are painful too.
- constant throat and stomach gurgling.
- just convinced I am going to pass out, have a seizure etc. Been feeling this for three months and nothing has happened yet I still fee this way.
I've had X-rays of chest and throat, blood tests, reflex test and strength test and got a barium swallow next week.
Is thia really all anxiety???? I just want to be back to normal. Have tried a few different meds but nothing seems to work as I get so stressed out at the thought of taking a new tablet.
Losing the will!!!
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mac58 fiona12344
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Oh, Fiona, you're having an awful time. I'm sorry to read all that you're going through.
Yes, all your symptoms are caused by extreme anxiety. Our minds can convince us that there is something badly wrong when in fact the problem is that for some reason we have become super-anxious.
It's good that you have had tests to rule out medical problems. What meds have you been prescribed? You do need to give some meds quite a long time to work.
fiona12344 mac58
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Hi Mac, thank you for your response.
I know it really does feel so s**t at the moment and I just long for the day I look back on this as just a memory and phase. Yes every day I feel a new symptom and worry about a different illness or disorder. It's horrible.
I've tried propranalol, diazepam and my gp now wants me to start Sertraline but I'm very nervous to try it.
stella58218 fiona12344
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I know how u feel Fiona, I can't even manage going out to family or shops! My husband basically does everything. He shops, cooks, cleans,takes the kids to school and holds down a night shift job 😩 Anxiety is the devil! I probably should make more of an effort and I feel guilty! My sleep is badly affected and I feel like there is this big weight on my shoulders! Someone suggested I may have a bit of depression also which I never really thought about, maybe tell your doctor how u feel. Take care
fiona12344 stella58218
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Yes my boyfriend is absolutely amazing and does everything and supports me above and beyond. I just hate that he is having to do this and want to go back to how we were. Yeah I've spoken to my doctor and see a counsellor, it's just very hard.
david76205 fiona12344
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Yes, it has all the qualifications of being generalized anxiety. I am right there with you. I don't want to go to store. I don't want to leave my recliner. I go outside to smoke and that's it. I am onshort term disability from work so I am really lost in my own head. The meds help. But I am not nearly as motivated as I use to be. I hate people, hate crowds. Get nervous to have a bowel movement (not sure why). The xanex helps and the lexepro is staring to work over the last week or so, but still want to sit in my chair and veg. A little shaky in the morning still, but far cry better than 3 weeks ago. I am going to start forcing myself to get out more. One thing I absolutely have to do is see my therapist weekly so that helps me get out of the house for awhile.
fiona12344 david76205
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I find it so hard to understand that all of these physical symptoms are just anxiety. Trying so hard to get my head around it.
9999 fiona12344
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I don't go out because of that. GAD, Social Anxiety, Social Phobia. I don't know what you have but it sounds similar to me. But I don't go out at all haven't been outside either a month and more. I stay in bed and I feel bad my family wants to go out when they visit but I am unable too. I can but I can't. I feel I'm dying if I do go out I always leave the place I feel terrible on the inside. The throat clearing and phlegm sounds like acid reflux. I clear my throat too after eating certain foods and have a cough with phlegm. I am sensitive to light but don't see what you describe. I think my eyes got used to the darkness already. I turn on the light but I prefer my room dark most of time. Painful teeth? You could be grinding your teeth at night..if you notice they hurt after you wake up that could be the cause. I feel lightheaded also. It depends on many factors though. Did you eat? Were you drinking liquids? Did it happen after getting up from bed? Is it constant all day? Tell your doctor everything so they can find the underlying cause. Then again it can be Anxiety. Anxiety causes many symptoms you describe that mimic health conditions. Good Luck👍
david76205 9999
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You should get an acid blocker for the acid reflux. The phlegm and acid are a big trigger for me for the anxiety attacks. Can't stand anything in my throat. Drink lots of water and stay away from caffeine. At some point you are going to force yourself out of the house and bed. Even for a walk in the woods or park. It will help. You need to face some fears or you will get more depressed. Sun light helps brighten your mood. Plan your trips knowing where there is a bathroom you can feel comfortable in if necessary. Baby steps at first. I have kids who depend on me so staying in bed is not an option for me. I am sure I would do the same if I could. But being a parent doesn't stop because of anxiety or depression and has made me determined to at least not interfere with my kids life.
9999 david76205
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I don't have kids good thing you don't let it interfere. It can affect them too. My problems are learned from my parents. Not really I don't think I will ever get out of my house. There's no woods or parks near me. But I would love to walk in the forest. That will never happen. I didn't go too both my grandma's funerals. I'm sad I won't even go to my mom's or dads. I feel sad I think I should go first I can't handle the fact my problems have messed up with everything. I love my parents, my family. Not being able to even be around them or if they were in hospital I wouldn't be able to go or if they di*d I wouldn't either. My trigger is people. I can't be near people I feel I'm dying on the inside the only person I can be near with is my mom. Everyone else I can't handle.
I wish I could. It's painful to be this way it's not easy for me or for them.
david76205 9999
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Have you tried therapy? Lots of good therapists out there. Maybe able to help you. Can't live in a bubble all your life. People suck, I agree, but you letting that control your life is worse. Got to get out of that black hole you are in. It can easily take over your life. Do you have a loved one or support system in place? Anyone to comfort and hold you? This really helps if you have an understanding partner. How do you make a living if you don't leave the house, eat and pay bills? Seems a terrible way to live. I get it, not judging and I would be doing the same I am sure if I didn't have kids.
9999 david76205
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I have a small family we're very close. Mom, sister, brother, dad, grandma. Thats all. They all have their own family. Not my mom though. I live with her she supports me I feel bad about it. I do help out in the house. Not lately but I'm beginning to do it again. I do want to get better but there's no help for me. I'm at my worst time. I contemplate su*c*de everyday I don't think there's anyone that can get me out of my house even if I feel like I'm dying or someone st*bbed me I would stay home. I can't go out. I can't I feel terrible I once accompanied my mom to the hospital I didnt want too but I did. I wanted to jump o** br*dge halfway there. My anxiety is extreme there's nothing that will help. I've been like this since I was 4. My family trys to understand me and they support me. I can see the pain in their eyes but no one really understands how I feel or what's on my mind. Everyday just to keep going is a struggle I wish I didn't care about my mother and ended it already. This is not what I wanted. I wanted to be productive I was going to college 7 years ago. Then attempted su*c*de and fell into a pithole. I can't get out. I'm depressed. I've h*rmed myself many times. I wanted to be like everyone else. Work, go out, get my grocery's, be productive and have fun and go out with my family. Do simple things everyone does but I am unable too because I dread it and feel I'm dying. That's a panic attack I've been told. I feel it's me who s*cks. I'm my own worse enemy I always mess up everything. Thanks for the advice though👍💖
david76205 9999
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It's okay. Work back into your routine slowly and help your mom as much as you can. It's good you have someone who supports you.
9999 david76205
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marleen85993 fiona12344
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Hi Fiona you are suffering from anxiety and you probably will need therapy and perhaps medication to help you deal with the thoughts and symptoms.You won't enjoy going out however the worst thing you can do is isolate yourself and sit and fixate on your thoughts and feelings.Keep going out . Learn relaxation techniques and breathing techniques which you will find on YouTube.Also get up and go for a walk clean the house do anything that gets you up and moving.Do not go down the route of googling your symptoms as you will think you are dying which I can assure you you are not.
fiona12344 marleen85993
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Hi Marleen, thank you so much for your response. Yes I try really hard to set goals each day to complete and this includes going out or driving a little way on my own. I have a terrible habit of googling symptoms and am trying so hard to steer clear from doing this. I have counselling and my dr wants me to try Sertraline. I'm just so anxious to try it
david76205 fiona12344
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Yeah, you have a good idea what it is so best bet is to stop googling symptoms or you are really going to drive yourself nuts. Let's go with the anxiety diagnosis and treat that as it's the less of two evils (so to speak). I know it's hard because your brain does not exactly make sense of the anxiety symptoms and every bone in your body tells you it's something much worse, but we have all been there. Just give yourself a break and try to remain calm and constructive. I have to be honest. I set goals and have plenty to do, but am not motivated to do anything. Guess that's part of it. Hope you feel better.
marleen85993 fiona12344
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Hi Fiona if you don't try you won't know.l think a lot of people that suffer ànxiety have a hard time getting on to meds as they Google side effects and panic.They do have side effects however they do pass and allow them 6 to 8 weeks to work.