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chrissomewhere
chrissomewhere

I've battled depression for all my adult life. I've picked myself up and been knocked back down so many times but I've always kept going. I'm now really struggling to continue. I'm 38 years old and I don't remember a time when I really felt happy. I always used the reason of the pain it would cause to my family but even that is losing sway. I go to sleep at night praying not to wake up. Nothing interests me anymore it all just seems so dull and pointless. I just can't find a reason to keep fighting anymore. Every day is just pain and misery and I'm desperate for it to stop. I constantly think of the different ways I could end it I'm now just trying to decide which one.

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  • amanda35274
    amanda35274 chrissomewhere

    Posted

    Hi chris ive batted it years n u think its just too hard why bother anymore. ?? But eachtym i start to see a light at the end of the tunnel i thank god i didnt do it xx but each tym. Like ur feeling now u think this is just too hard. I can only offer to listen & wish i cld predict wat ur future may hold.. but maybe the nxt tab u try the nxt dr u see is the one that changes everything for the better. Call ur dr or go to yr local hospital asap. Wish u luck. Ur not alone xxx even tho u feel it now ?

  • chrissomewhere
    chrissomewhere

    Posted

    I suppose it started with being bullied at school and feeling alone then. My mother died when I was 21 and then my father not long after. I then met my wife who has never been understanding and has temper issues. For the past 13 years we've been together any little thing I've done wrong has been the end of the world. I've been told I'm useless every day for the past 13 years and no matter how hard I try not matter what I do its never enough. I lost my job some months ago and have struggled to get back into work especially with my depression. It's been easier to find escape in some way or another. Well recently it's come to the point where my wife and I can't continue. So now I am alone. I don't have family and I don't have my wife. It really feels like the end of the line for me because I don't have a reason to keep fighting anymore. I feel like i should just bury myself in a hole some where and do the world a favour.

    • amanda35274
      amanda35274 chrissomewhere

      Posted

      You are feeling this way chris like my youngest brother is and he is beyond help xx 15 yrs with a wife who has controlled him emotionally. Put him down. He feels he is worth nothing. And he feels as u do and its absolutely heartbreaking to see. Hes 39 yrs old & he wont accept help and is becoming unwell too. And bcoz im depressed ive not enough fight to win for both if us. Ive told him he can stay with me get some peace but hes now changed all contact details as he has b4. Xxx i dont want this to be u.... u start to believe wat others tell u u are its emotional abuse xx u deserve happiness. Seek help asap. M xx

  • deirdre._03652
    deirdre._03652 chrissomewhere

    Posted

    Hi to both chriss and Amanda...

    Your posts have touched me so much, they have made me cry....

    I feel so sorry that the both of you feel so desperately sad and hopeless....

    Please do three things....tell your families honestly !!! Zjust how severe your depression is..they will want to help you xxx

    Please, please, please...either go to your DR today or tomorrow...

    Or, maybe even better...go through your local A AND E..and tell them that you are in danger of harming yourself....every single A AND E...now has a PRIVATE ROOM IN RECEPTION, where you are taken to straight away...you will be seen by a specialist mental health nurse and then a psychiatrist...it is nothing to be ashamed of in any way whatsoever....

    I was sectioned four times for Alcohol Abuse, that nearly killed me...it literally saved my life and gave me back a life...I also made many good friends..

    Please do not leave this, you can feel happy once more. The medications are amazing now...I have been on antidepressants for nearly 20 years...much love for you both...never ever give up hope...warm, sincere , hugs and best wishes to you both....xxxxx

    • amanda35274
      amanda35274 deirdre._03652

      Posted

      Aww im starting to feel like im making headway now hun. U seem a warm awesome person. Yr words are lovely. I have always took on others problems so dont share hence y i become ill untill now. This forums helping so so much xx as a small child i was like a mum & cared for other siblings & only now am i stopping doing it.... i cant. Ive come to realise im important too. I want to live! Ive overcome a lot and so much since august. But im so lucky to have found a gud gp first ever with regards to mental health. Dont think id of wanted to live without her help. Or the fact my dsughters my world. ? Well done deidre in all youve overcome. Alchohol is still a danger for me wen depressed so im tryin to steer clear. Big hugs to u. Xxxx

  • cycad
    cycad chrissomewhere

    Posted

    Yeah, I know what you mean. There must be a couple of things you like. So long as you choose to remain in the world, just try find a spark of pleasure or meaning in them. To hell with people. They're the ones who caused the depression in the first place. 

  • borderriever
    borderriever chrissomewhere

    Posted

    You need to consider your family and their needs

    I do not know where you are in the world, I will explain for the UK.

    If you are suicidal Phone NHS INFORMATION LINE on Tel 111 and explain your fears they will triage and decide on how to help you

    Talk to your GP you need help and He will give you a treatment Plan

    BOB

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