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I've never posted anything about this, or told anyone other than one person about my issues, so I apologise in advance if this is just something that gets posted all the time, or is something that shouldn't be posted here.
I've suffered from, what I assume to be, depression, for the past 4 years or so. I'm 18 years old, and from the age of 13 - 16 I was with a girl who ruined my life. This caused me both anxiety and sadness during my secondary school years. My parents buy and do up houses and sell them, then move on, so as soon as I finished secondary - and broke up with my girlfriend at the time due to her personality, such as threatening suicide after due to me simply speaking to my female friends - we moved house to a new city. -- I think this girl caused a lot of issues, as I never felt happy and constantly felt stressed due to her immature threats.
I chose to go to a college in a different town, about a 30 minute bus ride from my home, so I didn't get to meet anyone from the place I live. I essentially left all of my friends behind from my secondary school years, and had very limited ability to see them again. This had led me to be unbelivably lonely.
As soon as college finished, the friends I made pretty much abandoned me despite my best efforts to remain friends with them. I've also had no luck in trying to get a new girl in my life, for the past three years, and it has affected my confidence. I dont think I'm attractive at all.
I've had over three jobs in the city I live in since I moved here, but the friends I make never seem to stick. I don't have any real friends at all. I'm going to university in a years time, in a new city - London- but I don't feel I can make it that long.
I've been drinking a lot since not long after moving here, and it only gets worse. My parents joke that I'm becoming an alcoholic, but they don't actually know how much I drink; they just see me buy the odd bottle of booze here and there. I'm so lost, and when I finally confide in an old friend, they forget about me too and leave me to it. I don't know what to do, but I can't sleep properly anymore and just feel so sad all the time. I need help.
I'm sorry again if this isn't an appropriate post. Thanks for any help in advance.
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