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Ok, so I had anxiety when I was 12 through 14. I had problems eating bcuz I was scared of throwing up and having panic attacks. After 14, I don't remember how but it all went away. I gained a lot of weight (went from 90 to 137) because I ate a lot lol I'm now 20 yrs old and it has come back, but worse now. I had to quit my job as a videographer bcuz I was always scared or nervous I was literally gonna throw up and pass out. Thing is idk where the idea or fear came from. When I first started I was fine, I would travel go on shoots and interview ppl. I don't have social anxiety. Now for the past 3 weeks ever since I quit I can't leave my house. Last weekend I had a panic attack on the highway and now I'm terrified to get in a car. I can't help but cry and be sad bcuz this isn't me. I feel traped in my own body constantly crying and scared of having attacks. I've had 5 attacks in the last month. I m now on Buspirone and all it does is give me weird brain zaps. I'm not a fan of meds for this kinda thing but my mom is worried and thinks it's best. I haven't eaten more than 5 bites of food each meal of the day. It's enough to get rid of the hunger rumbles but I'm losing weight in a bad way. I havent left my bed to the point that it feels like my muscles get sore from walking around. All because I'm scared of having attacks. I already know the facts that I won't die from it and I'm safe but it's a bad experience to go through. Now I am crying thinking will I ever be back to my normal self. I just want to know can I and will I be able to conquer this and get my life back fast.
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