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been diagnosed with depression anxiety, panic attacks, tried 3 different medications, have a phychiatrist and support worker as I can't leave the house and have a phobia of food so eating it all over the place. had to have a blood test and looks like I'm anemic but can't get in next week it's so stupid I feel awful dizzy, lightheaded, sick, I'm aching my eyes feel so heavy I'm constantly tired I just try lay as still as I can because I'm just so tired everything hurts, just moving a little or getting out of bed I'm out of breath, apparently I've got to be a certain bmi be taken seriously, I just get given a book to read and told to eat or to go out the house when I physically can't. I've lost loads of weight, I look like a skeleton all my bones are sticking out I can't get comfy because I'm so skinny I feel like no one is taking me seriously like are they just waiting for me to collapse or have heart failure? i already have heart palps or my heart beats faster or feels like it's not beating properly. I don't even know how I'm getting through the day. I tell them I don't want to be here nomore and they know I've self harmed and it's like noones listening to me I really cannot live like this nomore I thought I'd be getting somewhere with all these referrals but I literally see them for 5 minutes get weighed and get told I've lost weight but its but nothing to worry about yet, the same crap everytime it's like I'm just left on my own I really don't know how I'm still here, I don't want to be anymore I don't know what to do I physically cannot live like this anymore I feel so let down by the people o thought would help me, Im scared I just couldn't feel any more low than I do now I just want it all to end
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