Can't stop worrying about death.

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Literally I'm either worrying about myself dying or worrying about my mum brother or sister dying. To the extent where I've actually asked my mum for them all to go to the doctors to get checked over to see if they are in good health. I'm not worrying about things like them getting hit by a car or being murdered. It's literally that they're going to get ill and pass away. These fears are so extremely bad. Constantly on my mind, even dreaming about it. And whenever death comes up in general conversation or on the tv I burst out crying or into a panic attack. I can't take it any longer I know death is certain in life and it happens to everyone and we won't know when it will happen and even when people are healthy they can pass away but it's such a strong fear and it's consuming my thoughts on a daily basis. What can I possibly do?

Even with myself I stay away from people so I don't get ill, I bath 2-3 times a day to avoid infections and bactiria, I don't eat food unless it's fresh. I'm going off meat and eggs incase of food poisioning/salmonella.

It's horrid! ):

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    Hello kellie

    Some of your concerns are coming through as irrational and extreem while have three baths a day is bordering on impulsive.

    When anyone in family dies that is how it is and we cannot do anything about it. It must be very uncomfortable for your family members if they keep picking up on your ideas of doom.

    Your excessive bathing will also concern them, so I would advise you make an appointment with your GP who will arrange some form of treatment plan. As your fears and impulsive behaviour must be very uncomfortable.


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      Thankyou for your advice.

      Yes I do have many behavioural/mental issues when it comes to impulse and obsessive actions. (I'm currently waiting for an appointment with my mental health centre for a diagnosis of personality disorder/disocsiation.)

      I understand your concerns about the comfort of the family, but when I say family I mean my mother siblings and my mothers partner. As many of my family members are passed. But the ones that are around and know of my issues with fear of death literally don't take it seriously anyway. They just see it as another one of my obsessions/worries. My mother in particular is my biggest fear of losing. And she laughs at me when I ask her to go to the doctor if she gets a cold.

      So I can understand where you're coming from and I don't want to stay this way but it's a waiting game. When I was a teenager it was easy to get help. Now I'm nearly 21 it isn't as easy. And I've been referred to a therapy place called stt and have currently been on the waiting list for nearly 6 months as its high demand. So as I said. A waiting game. Which means more time for my mind to run away with it's self..

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      Hello Kellie

      Six months is a long time, if you are in the UK you will know about the stress the NHS is in.

      That of course is not your concern, you need treatment and understanding. Go back to your GP and explain the wait for treatment. It may be possible to arrange a sooner appointment if you will be able to take a cancelation for your review and treatment

      Good Luck


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    Hey Kellie,

    I have a fear of death thing going on but it's more selfish than that, it's about my death. I dunno how to break free from it cos it feels like its there constantly in my mind. Nothing seems to shift it.

    U need to work on urself. Firstly, turn ur TV off and leave it off for good. If u can't do this just watch 1 hour a day but no more.

    For past 2 nights I have done just that cos I fear the quiet and loneliness. I actually feel already both empowered and less stressed. I have also gone for a walk at dusk time for about an hour.

    My nest goals are less caffeine, more water and more home cooking. All this I guarantee will help bring anxiety levels down. Remember once you never had this constant ruminating. You will, with a bit of effort on ur part, get back to that state. Just remember that by doing all these things you are showing compassion to urself.

    I hope you can try some of these over next few days.


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